All of my thoughts, whether they're real or not
Is it something to hold on to, something to believe in
After all this time, we still believe right?
Feels.Pain.Emptiness.
Overthinking, mentally draining, stuck in one place, trying to reach the sky
You open your eyes, waking up everyday
You go to bed, closing your eyes, everyday
Waiting for someone or something to happen
The feeling of being left alone.
Even though there are billions of people on this earth
Millions in my country
Thousands in my town
Hundreds that I know
Few that I love
But am I seen too, am I loved, will i truly be accepted one day?
or are people just pretending
I feel alone in a room full of people
The music is so loud I can't even feel my own heartbeat
But still, there's nothing holding me there
Smiling, I go outside trying to hide the emptiness, trying to feel alive
I'm not depressed, I'm not sad but I'm not happy
More disappointed in myself, in me
Seeing everyone falling in love. It hurts. It's not me, the problem, right !?
Is it?
Maybe
Maybe it is.
But that's the way I always wanted it to be, isn't it?
I feel like heaven's trying to put me in hell
like Santa saying there's no more Christmas
Hoping for people to notice me, I wait. I wait, and up to this time I'm waiting
Do you believe in finding your soulmate?
Love. Falling in love.
Love - a big word with empty meaning
Is this all real?
Or are our brains just created to think what we are
What we're supposed to be
And what we're going to be
There were many people coming into my life
Some are still here, some are gone
Gone forever
Sometimes it's better to let go
Letting go of everything that drags you down
Keep going, I know life is unfair but your doing great
You are loved
-Anne
