𝒀𝑶𝑼 𝑺𝑨𝑽𝑬𝑫 𝑴𝑬 // mileven

thirty-eight

"what?" will exclaims in a breathy tone, widening his eyes at me in disbelief.

i breathe out harshly, impulsively taking the phone in my hand and throwing it across the room, attempting to release my anger through the movement. instead i just hear the sickening sound of the device barreling into my wall and a crack as it falls to the wooden flooring, shattered.

i shake my head in distress, reaching my trembling hands upward to cover my face, flinching when i feel dustin resting a comforting hand on my shoulder.

i take my friends' silence as a cue for me to keep talking, so i do.

"i think he took advantage of her. i think he did. el... el denied it. she said she wanted it to happen. but she was drunk. she wasn't thinking straight, right? people do stupid things when they're drunk. really stupid things."

"you're right, i was shit-faced drunk once and i set my doghouse on fire." will offers in a hesitant voice.

his words don't alleviate the stress pounding through my mind.

"she was at a party. god, i should've known. she wasn't texting me all of that night. i should've called max earlier, maybe i could've... i don't know. i could have stopped that asshole from sleeping with her." i ramble, curling my hands into fists as i stare at the whirling ceiling fan above me, trying to find some comfort in its repetitive movements.

"mike, it's not your fault." dustin says once my voice falters off. he gives my shoulder a reassuring squeeze. "you're mike wheeler, possibly the best and cheesiest boyfriend ever, you didn't do anything wrong."

"i should have let her talk." i say suddenly, dismissing dustin's words. "i—i called her earlier. so i could listen to her explain. so i could hear her side of the story. god, i just hung up on her! i didn't even let her talk! if... if she was taken advantage of, then i am such an idiot! such an insensitive idiot."

"mike!" will half screams, jumping out of his comfortable position on my desk chair and coming to my side. "just calm down, ok? you both need to talk. go hear her side of the story, there's obviously things that happened that she didn't get a chance to say. no one is at fault yet, ok? not until you know the whole story."

"what he said." dustin agrees, affirming his words with a nod. both will and dustin reach over to lift me up from my fetus-like position on my bed and bring me to sit up.

i release a slow exhale, wringing my hands slightly as i attempt to calm myself down.

"i'll call her again, where's my phone?" i say after a moment, raising myself to my feet.

"um, currently totaled on your bedroom floor. you should get that fixed." will says hesitantly, looking at the cell phone which is now broken in all kinds of ways.

"fuck."

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EL'S POV

max my literal baby/soulmate/loml💞

shit what happened

lol not good
😔😔😔😔😔

WHAT HAPPENED

he hung up on me
i need to sleep
a long
giant
six hour nap

el did you tell mike that you thought miles was him?
did you tell him that?

but i don't know that
not for sure
i don't know anything for sure
how pathetic would i seem if it's not even true
if i actually knew it was miles and fucked him anyway, and used an excuse to make up for it

you thought miles was mike
you know that you thought that
why are you being so difficult about this el
you could clear things up with mike so quick

i can't do that
my conscience is gonna be all twisted up
max i was fucking drunk
shitfaced drunk
i don't remember anything clearly
i would just be such a horrible person if i said that to mike without even knowing if it's true

el what the fuck
you would be such a horrible person IF YOU DOWNRIGHT CHEATED ON HIM
el, you're literally trying to convince me that you cheated on him

i'm not trying to do that
i just want to
i don't know i just want to be sure

you are sure
u remember saying mike over and over again
why would you be saying mike so many times if you didn't think miles was him

i could have been saying mikes name for so many reasons
maybe i just missed him during the party

you're trying to convince me that you actually cheated on him

i'm trying to stop you from making me seem like the victim
i'm not the victim
i might have cheated on mike, that makes me anything but the victim

god el
what do you want me to do here
do you want me to agree with you????
"yes el, you cheated on mike! bravo!"

max

no i'm supposed to take YOUR side
cause i'm your fucking person

you are my person
but that doesn't mean you immediately disregard every crappy thing i do and pretend i'm the victim

oh here we go again
IM NOT PRETENDING YOU'RE THE VICTIM
i'm trying to convince you that you're not in the wrong
is that so bad of me to do
to help my best friend out???

yes it is when you know i fucked up
and you're trying to spin the situation around so you i can feel less guilty
there's so many scenarios of what happened last night where i could have fully cheated on mike
and you're just looking at the one scenario where i thought miles was mike and you're running with it

el what the fuck
what the hell do u want me to do here
if you were in my place, you would be doing the exact same thing that i'm doing

no i wouldn't
i wouldn't try to sugarcoat anything for your benefit
cause that's fucked up

fine
you fucking cheated
is that what you wanted me to say
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HEYHEYHEY
i wasn't originally gonna write the max and el fight but hey! the more angst the better:)

is el right or is max right😔😔😔😔

hopefully not many angsty chapters are left! updating very soon <3
also!! PLEASE don't pressurize me about updating :/ i'm on break right now which is why i'll be writing much more frequently, but when i'm in school i'm so unbelievably busy, i'm trying my best to find time <33

— rose :)