You'll Find Me in the Shallows

Chapter 3

She didn’t bother questioning if he was awake, she already knew he would be so she hesitantly crept towards the door and lifted her hand to knock but just before she did she paused. Instead she used her enhanced speed to quickly enter his room without knocking. Before Klaus could even form words she was in front of his bed staring blankly at the wall silently.

“Hayley what are you doing here” Klaus questioned as he jumped up from his bed. He was quickly in front of her eyeing her curiously. She didn’t respond, it almost looked like she was in a daze again like she was the night before after he compelled her. “Hayley answer me.”  She still didn’t’ utter a word, she only stared and played with the ends of her hair. She was starting to concern him again so he needed to do something to snap her back to reality. With his voice slightly raised her grabbed her by her shoulders and shook her. “Hayley! Hayley what is that you are doing her?” It was enough to pull her back and she finally spoke up, at first whispering incoherent lines about dinner and crying and Hope being hungry. As he listened to her and watched her he softened, realizing that she had to be in need of something if she sought him out while in this state. Hayley was a complete mess and if he didn’t know any better he would say she was on the verge of a complete mental breakdown. He sighed as he felt his eyes burn from the tears welling up. “Hayley” he said softly which caused her to stop her rambling and look up at him. He rubbed her shoulders to relax her and looked her deep in the eyes. “Please love you are frightening me. I need you to pull yourself together and tell me what it is that you need from me, just tell me it doesn’t matter what it is. I just need you to communicate that to me. Can you do that?” It was almost like talking to a child and that unnerved him because Hayley is usually so strong, even when she’s weak she’s strong.

Hayley stared back at him and slowly nodded her head yes. She took a few deep breaths and was finally able to compose coherent sentences. “I…I…I’m going crazy Klaus…”

“No you aren’t sweetheart, you’re not going crazy.”

“No I am” she said meekly. “I was sitting at the table with Elijah trying to pretend to be okay when I…I’m not, I want to feed Hope I think she’s hungry, my baby…she…she needs me.” Hayley buried her hands in her face and started to sob. “She needs me and I need to get to her but I can’t get to her, I have no idea where she is and I can’t take this anymore, Klaus I…I think it’s making me go crazy. I don’t even remember how I got here, It’s all so foggy and dark and I…I can feel myself loosing it.”

“I happen to believe that everyone’s felt just a little bit crazy at some point in their lifetime, that doesn’t mean you’re going crazy love just-“

“NO! YOU’RE NOT LISTENING TO ME! ” She screamed.

“Hayley calm down, please”

She pulled her rage in and tossed her hand up in the air as she walked a way from Klaus. She paced back and forth in his room, once again reaching that place she was in previously while in her room. “Don’t you see, this is what I’m talking about…why did I get so angry at you? Why am I so angry right now? One minute I think I feel fine, the next all I want to do is cry because I swear that I can physically feel our daughter, then the next minute I find my self just filled with this rage, with this anger that I can’t control. I’m loosing control.” She anxiously continued pacing and ranting, pausing only to periodically steady her breathing.