James potter Confession for Lily Evans.
"Prongs, why are you stressing out? It is love!!" Sirius said without his usual playfulness. His face was void of any expression and his voice deep.
"Sirius, let him consider, it's the matter of his life and marriage." Remus was firm with his sentence. Even more than normal.
" He can say what he feels!!!!" Sirius Growled.
" Sirius wait and let him speak about what he feels, is he sure or not, Is it love, Is it really love?" Remus said pressuring on the word 'love'.
He rotates his gaze to look at the room in which they were discussing the matter. Peter was in the corner sitting with a blank face too. Probably Trying to keep his mouth shut, James was sure.
James Once more looked around, his parent's home was always a place where he and his mates were always welcomed, no-matter the time or situation.
"Speak Prongs, it's now or never! And don't tell me, you still aren't sure, after years of wait, persistence, development and love!" Sirius barked.
Peter suprisingly straight posture twisted at his tone.
"James, it's okay, you're young and it's not necessary that you're in love". Remus paused "It can be attraction or you just like her? It can't be necessarily love you feel towards Lily." His voice was holding care and Sincerity.
" IT'S NOT ATTRACTION" James shouted. He didn't liked the very thought to call his feelings for lily just attraction.
"I- " James took a deep breath and continued "If yelling at her in a argument makes my throat burn like I just drowned 6 shots, isn't love."
His presence was in the four walls but he was reliving his time with his flower.
"If when her eyes make me stop in my tracks and think about what I'm about to say next , isn't love."
He remembered the first time, they talked.
"If when her laugh make me tense up my knuckles thinking about never hearing it again, isn't love."
He remember, the first time they laughed.
"If when her voice can calm my worst anxiety attacks and makes me want to listen to anything she has to say, isn't love."
He remember, the first time they kissed.
He can still feel the sensations.
He was breathing heavily.
"If when her smile makes my chest Quack and my lungs shrink but feel refreshed in one motion, isn't love."
He remembers, the first time they had an argument. He cringed at the thought but nevertheless he remember and feel the passion they both had in themselves.
"If when in the room full of people, my eyes only search for her, isn't love."
He remember, the first time they were on a date. The time they were holding each other like they were holding onto their dear life.
"But if all of this is indeed Love."
He remember all those beautiful moments with his lily. And the thought of her being his, was more than overwhelming.
"Then Yes, I love Lily Evans.
I won't hesitate to protect her with my life, I won't take a second thought and make everything possible to see a smile on her face, and to see her by my side, I love her and I will, until the very end," He completed with a smile.
He didn't realized but his cheeks were wet. Those years of them dating weren't just anything, Now he wholeheartedly understood, that this isn't just attraction, passion, lust or anything else. It is love.
Love with all of these in it.
Remus and Sirius were now grinning ear to ear by his Confession, but they both were looking over his shoulder.
He turned and His breath hitched.
He gasped.
There stood peter at the doorway, in all his awkward glory, smiling.
James instantly diverts his gaze towards the other peter sitting on his bed. James was blank for a minute and then everything started making sense, peter's teared up eyes, the confident posture, everything.
The peter in the bed was actually Lily in disguise and based on the matching grin on Sirius and Remus' faces, it was clear that they were aware of this.
He was Tricked! He didn't understood what happened, it was so fast. One minute he was watching the peter on bed holding a tearstained face and a mil-second later, he was being tackled on the ground by the fake "peter" and now he could see the potions' effect coming off.
The back of his head crashed on the ragged floor but he still winced. He closed his eyes and stayed on the ground. He can feel his attacker's nose on the crook of his neck while clutching him, hard. His jersey was getting wet but his heart was beating so fast, he was sure that it was gonna come out but he didn't wanted to move, didn't wanted to leave the embrace.
But just when James was about to hug his attacker back, the attacker lifted their head up and James' world stopped revolving for the moment.
James' favorite pair of eyes, eyes as green as a fresh pickled toad was staring back at him. Bloodshot. No no no he didn't wanted a single drop of tear on his flower's eyes.
"I l-love y-you too" lily croaked. James didn't knew that his lily can stutter. That was unexpected and new.
He can feel his tears from a few minutes ago coming back. The gloomy room wasn't looking dim anymore. Warmth was spreading through his chest when he heard those three words from the love of his life.
Yes, he was sure now. He loved lily Evans. It really was love.
He finally embraced her. For the rest of his life, he prayed.
"Hate to interrupt your romance prongs and soon to be potter but still evans, but we need to leave!" Sirius smirked. Asshole.
Lily blushed crimson, They both got up and started to dust their clothes. Peter was the first one out of the room, Remus and Sirius following suit. After a quick peck on the lips, James and lily were the last ones to leave for the stairs. By the time they both reached downstairs, everyone was getting out of the house. James took the key from the cabinet and walked out of the house, Hand-in-hand with his lily. His lily.
Another thing that James can get used to.
Just for the rest of his life.
