life..it's complicated

c h a p t e r ~ o n e

richelles pov:
my life is great ,, i've got a loving family & amazing friends .. but somethings off .. nothing really feels the same anymore & i don't know why. at the beginning of the year i was in a happy strong 8 month relationship, then he broke up with me because i called some guy cute.
then my birthday came along & no one was allowed over legally, because of COVID. so i stayed at home and wasn't allowed to see my friends.
then i nearly got in to a relationship with this amazing guy that's been my best friend for 5 years, who's name is Noah.. but i confessed my feelings a little too late & he already had a girlfriend that i used to go to school with. so we stayed best friends.
oh now this bit was harsh.
i got with this boy his name is Elliot. but my mother hated him as we've met before & our mums know each other & work together. he was know as a 'bad boy', but he was so sweet to me , he would always talk to me no matter what. a few months went by & my mum found out.. so she made me break up with him, & it was over text. i cried with my best friend Jacquie for the rest of that weekend. i really loved him.. but it just wasn't meant to be , is what i tell myself. now it's august & i'm still hurting but i'm getting happier. Jacquie has been supporting me, & just being there for me. i usually never cry in front of people but with this , i couldn't hold it back.
but anyways, my family... well they're not the greatest help. since my mum (Karen) hated Elliot we have been a bit distant for a bit as she told me not to get with him. my dad (Allan) is just sorta .. there i guess. my brother (Ryan) is flat out annoying . & my sister (Taylor) isn't here half the time as she's off with her boyfriend (Holden). & this isn't the type of stuff i'm comfortable with talking to my family about anyways. i'm just lucky Jacquie's here for me. & i believe she always will be.
school.. it's school i guess. it's more difficult than i thought it would be changing schools. & going into high school. i've lost connections with a lot of my friends & just drifted apart in general. but i still have Jacquie & new friends i've made.
well i guess you could say this years been ,, hectic & busy. & were only in august ! i'm just worried about what'll come next..

hey guys so this is my first book ever ! and i'm really excited ! thanks for ready the first chapter ,, i'll try to update daily . & just a warning i'm in Australia so the time zones & words might be different . but yeh.