10/24/20
I don't want to need someone but the reality of it is, that everyone on this planet was created with the need of companionship. I am in a constant state of wanting to break these stereotypes and expectations that have been set for me by society, but for once I feel as though it would be nice to be like everyone else. I want to have something in common with the people around me but, not with the people that are currently in my life. I want what is real and raw and beneficial for not only me, but for those surrounding me. I don't want everything or really anything to be about me, but I want to be included. I don't need attention 24/7 but maybe every now and then an hour to talk to someone about what is going on in my life, to be vulnerable with someone trusted, wouldn't be so bad. I want someone to notice the subtle changes in my behavior or how I carry myself when I am lacking excitement. I want to be known by those that matter to me, but instead I feel like just my presence is known. These people, they notice when I am not around because I am simply just another chair to be filled at the dinner table. I am not known by the way I tilt my head when I am focusing, instead I am known by the parking space that is taken on Sunday nights. How pathetic is that?
