Dazed and confused

Chapter 21

This was crazy, I was wondering why saoirse wanted to take me to his premier so much, then left.
"Happy?! Your not happy?!"
An unfamiliar voice yelled through Millies apartment.

We both snapped our heads around to the door.
"Who was that?"
Harry whispered.
"I- I don't know..."
I said, half scared.
"Millie?!"
Harry yelled.

After we heard some commotion.
I kicked the door down.
Harry and I ran in.

I saw Millie crying, her cheek had a cut on her cheek.
She was crying hysterically.

And at the wall was some guy, he was holding his face.

I put to and to together.
Holy shit.

I ran to Millie, she fell in my arms.
Crying.

I saw her fist, it was still clenched with cuts on her knuckles.

I looked to Harry, as he gave me the look.
I nodded, and Harry punched this mystery man.
Once, pretty much fucking him up.

Millie tucked her head in my chest.
"Your ok baby."
I whispered.
Sobbing.
"Don't waste your time with that, she's a filthy whore that won't even care for you!"
The man yelled at me, as he pushed Harry off of him.
My whole body froze.

Rage lit inside of me.
As much as I didn't want to leave her side, I couldn't let some nothing man tell me my love is a whore.

I picked Millie up, handing her over to Harry.
"Take her out of her."
I whispered to him.

He nodded walking out with Millie.
I took Zac in a room.
"What are you gonna do? You look a bit built down to fight me."
He said.

"Listen here and listen good, I want you to leave. I don't want you ever coming back here. Zac isn't it?"
I asked.

Staring him down.
"How did you know-"
"You've completely ruined someone's life! She's been damaged by you mate! Your a fucked up person! I never want to see your face again."
"Millie is an amazing person that I appreciate with my life. So you get out of here, I don't want to hurt or waste my time with you."
I said, I was blinded with rage.

He looked scared.
"Have fun with that slut of a girlfriend."
He spat.

I grabbed him by the collar smashing him up against the wall.
"Get out of here while you can".
I spat into his face.

I let go of him, he ran out down the stairs.
I slid down the wall holding my face in my hands.
What have I gotten myself into, why would he say that.

Soon enough Millie ran in, she looked terrible. Crusty blood marks on her cheek, pains me to see.
She stood there looking at me.
"I love you."
I said.
"Listen- I. I don't want you to see me like that, I don't want you to have to do that for me."
She said, her face was blank.
"What? What do you mean?"
I asked, scared jumping up, holding her face.
She didn't smile,
"I don't want you, to see me broken, I'll never be fixed. I'm broken forever timothee."
"Timmy-"
I corrected.
"Timothee, I can't keep doing this."
She sighed out.
"No no- you don't need to say this Millie. I expressed my un dying love for you. This is what you tell me?"
I asked. Crying now of course.
"You don't understand I'll never be happy. I'll try but it won't ever stick with me."
She said, her eyes stuck to the floor.

My hair was beyond messy, my eyes were stinging. I couldn't look at her.
"W-w well fine then! I try with you! I love you Millie baby- baby please look at Me."
I brought her eyes to mine.

Pained to see them fogged with no emotion. Her once blue vibrant eyes, now cloudy grey.
"I love you, I don't care about this. I don't care about your past or whatever he is. I don't care, I'll wait and I'll help you. Your being selfish my love! Don't say these things!"
I yelled, running my hands through my hair.

She opened her mouth almost like the last bit of hope blew away.

It was raining out side, the dark sky blinding me.
"It's fine."
I spat.

Grabbing my coat and storming out.
I slammed her door, my eyes stinging even more.
Not again.

I walked back to the door, no.
She doesn't want you.

I walked back down the stairs, my hair damping.
I walked down.

This is so familiar I hate it.
The rain crashed down, it hadn't rained in New York since Millie came here.

I denied crying for her, I won't I wouldn't. I ran down New York's paths I felt like the only one without an umbrella but that didn't even occur to me.
"Wait! Wait!"
I heard behind me, I saw a girl with wet blonde hair
"OH SHUT UP SHUT UP!"
She yelled, I looked at her.
She slipped and fell onto me.
"Millie?"
I asked sniffling tears away.
She slowly opened her eyes facing mine.
I caught her just before she hit the ground.
"I'm sorry- I love you too."
Millie stuttered out.
I smiled, connecting our lips.

We were lying on the wet pavement, everyone walking around us, as we kissed in the rain.
"I'm sorry."
"I'm sorry."
She sobbed out, she nuzzled into my chest.
"I'm sorry."
She said again.
"Hey hey, don't say sorry."
"I love you to much, I couldn't let you go again."
She said.
"I love you to."
I whispered.

"Thanks for getting Zac away, you didn't kill him did you?"
She asked.
"I wanted to, but I resisted. For you that is."
She chuckled.