His Pills ~Kagehina fluff story~

1~Off the court

*WARNING* I'm gonna put this here and in the description but this book will contain sensitive topics like self-harm and depression so if you are not comfortable with these things I would advise you don't read on.

I was always great at hiding secrets but when it comes to him I can't hide anything.

~Hinata's pov~

Me and Kageyama have been getting a lot closer lately, it's not just in a friendly way either, we have been getting closer in the sense that I don't mind when he just leans on me and smells my hair, and he doesn't mind when I just feel like burying my face in his chest. I don't mind really, actually, that's a lie, I don't mind at all. It makes me feel safe when he's near me kind of like I have my own bodyguard or something.

I can also sorta tell he doesn't mind either. We have been partners for a while now and I've gotten used to reading Kageyama using his body language and expressions. He isn't exactly a social butterfly so we sometimes have these really comfortable silences where I can just admire him, and you could say I picked up a few things from these occurrences.

The only bad thing is he's learned to read me too.

This wouldn't be a problem if I didn't have to keep my secret, but I do so it is a major problem.

You see I take four different doses of pills. Benzodiazepines (also known as tranquilizers) for my anxiety, sertraline (Zoloft) for depression, trazodone (Desyrel), which is also an antidepressant, for sleep deprivation and, Methylphenidate for ADHD.

Most of them make me drowsy so I take the two antidepressants as soon as I wake up, the trazodone after I have a light snack, I also take my ADHD pills in the morning and wait a while cause I'm not supposed to do anything major after until I know its kicked in, and the Tranquilizers any time of day in the right doses without anyone seeing.

The only ones I carry with me are the tranquilizers and sometimes my ADHD pills.

I forgot to mention Kageyama has gotten much more protective lately. He insists on walking me to every one of my classes, I do love the fact that he's always with me but it makes it harder for me to take my pills.

I just hope he doesn't find out anytime soon.

~Kageyama's pov~

I love Hinata. I love him so Fucking much. I love the way his beautiful hazel eyes shine in the sunlight. I love his beautiful smile that can instantly light up a room, I especially love his hair and how it smells, it reminds me of the sun, so bright and soft, and damn does it smell good. He always smells good. Even after we've just had practice he still has that exact same smell of cinnamon and the slight hint of sunflowers.

Not only that but, it's like his body was specially made to fit perfectly into mine. If I hug him, which isn't often, he's just the right size, his body fits perfectly with his face in my chest and my nose right in his bright orange hair.

He's just so perfect to me, and nothing can change my mind.

I have been noticing slight changes in his behavior though, he's become a lot more drowsy during practice and the first two periods of school, then he perks up like his usual ball of energy self like nothing ever happened.

I am kinda worried, not that I would ever tell anyone that of course, but I couldn't bear the thought of the little ginger being upset or hurt cause I know how much volleyball means to him and if he can't play he would definitely be really upset.

Right now we are at afternoon practice and Hinata looks really happy as he lands all his spikes perfectly.

as he lands back on the cold ground of the gym floor his hair bounces like a cloud of bright orange cotton candy just luring me in to touch it and feel its softness. Before I knew it my body was moving by itself, walking further towards the ginger that was giving me the biggest brightest smile that I've seen yet.

My hand landed in his amazingly soft hair my other hand on his left cheek, he was a little surprised at first but soon nuzzled his face into my hand. I could hear Tukishima whisper something to Yamaguchi on the other side of the net but it didn't exactly process in my head as I was too distracted with the cute expression Hinata had on his face right now.

We finally snapped out of it when Daichi Suddenly shouted that it was the end of practice and we could go home for the day.

Hinata and I instantly pulled away from each other, I could feel my face slightly burning up so as for him not to see I quickly turned around and headed for the changing rooms.

~Back to Hinata's pov~

Kageyama's hand was so big compared to my face, it fit perfectly into his large hand and it was really warm, I felt so calm and at peace right there that I almost forgot that we were still surrounded by the rest of the team. I got a bit startled when Daichi said quite loudly that we could go home now and I felt disappointed when the warmth of Kageyama's hand left my face.

He quickly turned around, which I was grateful for as I was probably as red as a tomato, and started walking to the changing rooms with me quickly following after.

~time skippyyyyyyyyyy~

Kageyama and I always walk home together sometimes in a comfortable silence whereas other times we talk about volleyball or food, sometimes even school, but I always look forward to the walks home with Kageyama.

It gives me some alone time with him cause at school were always surrounded by our friends or classmates.

it's very rare we talk this openly at school unless we're having lunch together just by ourselves, which also doesn't happen often.

When we eventually have to part ways I always feel this weird feeling in the deep depths of my body, almost like an immense sadness, and I'm left with the thought that I never wanna leave Kageyama's side.

Do I like him? no were just really close that's it. right?

maybe I do like him.

1044 words

Hello, my lovelies. I know this might not be that good as it's my first proper book on here but ill try my best :) Thank you for reading the first chapter of His Pills, I hope you enjoyed it and if you wanna you can always leave suggestions to what you might want me to add to it in the future. Anyways by for now my lovelies.

~Author-chan