Do you ever wonder why you are alive or why you where put on this earth?
For me, I question that everyday.
We go day by day suppressing unwanted memories. Maybe even years; but for me I try to hide everything from almost everyone.
It's hard for a lot of people to admit that certain things in their past actually happened. For me I was just scared that no one would believe me or listen to me; That they thought I was just a child. A child who would make stories up, try to play parents off one another, just a child who wants attention. For those who did believe me, thank you. Thank you for being apart of my life and asking if I am okay.
Sometimes we hide the truth to protect ourselves, to protect ourselves from what we have seen, to protect others. So one one pity's us. But in the end we only hurt ourselves.
Everyone expects me to be okay, but who is ever really okay?
Honestly is anyone actually okay? Myself I sit here day in and day out, I have kept my thoughts to myself and everything that i am going through to myself. Eventually you will find someone who appreciates you for you and it may take time but in the end it is worth it.
No matter how many Burdens you carry you always put everyone before yourself, but you feel a sense of fulfillment when you see someone smile.
You suppress your own well being to make sure others are okay.
One day everything will make sense eventually, all you can do right now is keep moving forward and think about all the things you have worked for and how far you have made it.
~ The moment you think about giving up, think of the reason why you held on for so long ~ Natsu Dragneel.
