"Why!? Bakit mo to nagawa sakin?!" he growled as I feel the pain in his voice
You messed up big time, fucker.
" I'm sorry--"
"Wow! Ha! Just wow! I don't fucking want to hear your apologies! I want to hear your explanation!" he cut me off
"Tell me! Why!?Sa lahat ng mga taong pwede akong lokohin bakit ikaw pa?"
Shit! I can't stand seeing him crying.
"Look, I'm sorry I messed up, I didn't mean to do this... Please, j-just give me one more chance please" I uttered in between my sobs
" I don't know, I'm so broke and I don't know if you deserve my forgiveness after all"
"You love me right?.. You do, right?" I asked helplessly
"Of course! Hindi naman ako nasasaktan ng ganito kung hindi kita mahal!" he answered
"Then let me make it up to you, please just this once...." pagmamakaawa ko
"I-I can't, I can't risk again. I don't wanna risk again."
"Are you giving up on me?"
He didn't respond. He clearly gave up
"Ganon nalang ba kadali yon? Akala ko ba mahal mo ako? Akala ko ba na lagi mo akong iintindihin? Mahal mo ko diba? Then why can't you give me a chance?! Do you really love me all this time?"
Suddenly a palm touched my cheeks. I was rendered speechless because of what I have just said
"Wala kang karapatan na kuwestiyunin ang nararamdaman ko! Dahil wala kang alam! Wala kang alam! Hindi mo alam kung gaano mo ako nasasaktan sa tuwing itinatanggi mo na boyfriend mo ako! Na ako ang mahal mo at hindi ang babaeng yon! Hindi mo alam kung gano ako kabasag ngayon ng malaman ko na ang ama ng batang nasa sinapupunan ng babaeng yon ay ikaw! At mas lalong hindi mo alam kung gaano kasakit para sakin na magpanggap na wala akong alam sa mga nangyayari! Wala kang alam kung gano kasakit sakin yon..." he stopped as he was running out of air.
" .... Akala ko ba ako lang? Diba sabi mo hindi maididikta ng anumang bagay ang nasa pagitan ng hita ko ang pagmamahal mo sakin? Di ba sabi mo, okay lang sayo na hindi tayo makabuo ng pamilya kasi andito naman ako sa tabi mo??"
Damn! How can I make this up to him.
"Yes, totoo lahat ng yon. Mahal kita, mahal na mahal. Maniwala ka naman sakin o! Please kailangan kita, hindi ko kaya ng wala ka. Maawa ka sakin"
Lumuhod ako atsaka niyakap siya sa kanyang hita.
"I will do everything para lang mapatawad mo ako. Please just tell me!"
"Anything?" he asked as he stared at me
I nod. Please I really am sorry. I can't stand---
"Gusto ko na....magpakatatay ka sa bata."
All of my thoughts we're vanished as he uttered those words.
I lift my gaze up to him just to only see if he was serious about it.
Unluckily. He was
"Be a man, yan ang gusto kong gawin mo. Panagutan mo ang bata, ibuhos mo lahat ng pagmamahal mo sa kanya. Deserve niya na magkaroon ng maayos na pamilya dahil wala siyang kasalanan. Shower the baby with all your love and attention, that baby needs it more than me. Protect him at all cost. Take care of yourself too, don't get too devastated of what's happening. Just... Be happy. It's a blessing.After all, nasampal na ako ng katotohanan, it just hit my biggest insecurity, I can't bear a child, I can't give you a happy family all that I can give is my Love and Support. I thought I already prepared myself for this. And as for the forgiveness, I will surely forgive you but not at this very moment. I will just let time to heal everything..."
As i hear those words, it tear me apart. He was one of the people I truly love. I want to be with him always and he's the one I want to be with.
"And one last favor... This is going to be the last time we'll see each other.Let's make different paths. I want you to know, na all those times na kasama kita was the happiest times, and I will never forget that. I will cherish the things what we have, always and forever. You are a one bastard, but you are worth it. I love you, Goodbye...."
Every step he's making breaks my heart.
How can I ruin a treasure like him?
I'm such an asshole.
One last step.... and the most precious thing I have suddenly disappear.
He was once my baby, but I didn't feed him enough
He was once my fragile vase, but I break him
He was once my treasure, but I should've care less
In real life, there were no fairies and sparkling things. There's no such magic that could turn things around
It was a battlefield wherein winning is uncertain
It was like a competition but I lose and I just break the chance of having such a precious prize
It was Almost a Fairytale.
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AN: Hiii! This is a new story of mine, I unpublished my stories and try to create another. And hopefully matapos ko siyaaa.
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