looking for light

sucide

Tamar's POV

"Henry get inside my toilet and stay there, Vincent is already downstairs and I don't want him to see you"..

"What the hell!, why would I hide in the toilet, am not even your boyfriend" he said still sitting down without any intention of moving which irritated me..

"I swear to God  if you don't get into that toilet on time and Vincent finds you here,  I will make sure you hate me forever" I said it with threat and a promise which he soon realized

" I was just joking, am already in the toilet, take your time" and then he went in, my apartment is a one room apartment, just the bedroom, kitchen and toilet so no much places to hide someone, I heard the knock on my door,i quickly looked at myself in the mirror before opening it..

"Hi" I said while I opened the door wide for him to step in, Henry is a very huge guy and I must say his looks contributes to why people fear him in campus, he is just too built and would pass for a bouncer, also, he doesn't smile often, not for the two years I have known him..

"Your place is nice" he complimented while looking around before sitting on the bed, I only have one chair and a reading table and if he had sat on the chair, I would have doubted his intentions of coming here..

"Well I only go for nice things"I replied while joining him to seat at the end of the bed, not too much of a distance between us because he was sitting on the middle of the bed...

"Truly, you always do, he said while checking out my expose labs which was now more visible as I seat, I followed his gaze till they stopped at my boobs and his tongue was already wetting his lips, typical guy, he is already undressing me in his head..

"You said you wanted to tell me something important" I had to break him out of the trance he was and remind him why he was here but instead he moved closer and used one of his finger tip to trace an invisible pattern on my exposed laps while we were staring at each other without breaking eye contact, he got closer and I knew he wanted to kiss me so I cleared my throat and held the hand that was moving inappropriately...

"I have always liked you ever since I saw you, I wanted to observe you well enough and make sure you ain't scared of me before making any moves, I do love you and want you to be my girlfriend"..he said it gently that I had to look at him again, how can that voice come out from him??,, He thinks am not scared of him?? I can't even breath properly when he is around, and that is due to the fear I have for him, everyone is scared of him, he is a bloody cultist, we all know he is, all the killings he had done had no evidence so the police can't arrest him, he threatens every lectura and everything goes as he wants, me knowing him gave me ultimate protection in campus and I got carried away  by it, I forgot that one day he might take a liking to me, thank God for Vera one of my friends who told me to be more observant and then I realized he was catching feelings for me and when he said we need to talk, I knew what was next, he has never visited my lodge before but today he Did, and rumors has it that he never goes to a girls room without having sex with her, I might not be the best or the baddest person, even though my friends say am a player, I can't handle Vincent, one mistake and he would kill me, worst if my dad finds out am dating a cultist, I might not finish school, so with all this, I came up with a plan, step one: cry after his confession, which wasn't hard because all I have to do was think back to when dad said my mom was dead..

"Why are you crying?" He sounds confused , "is it because of what I said" I could dictate a bit of anger...

" No, that's not it, I have never had a boyfriend and would love to have one but".. I faked a loud sob while he tried to calm me down...

"But what?".. now step two bring out the good actress slash story teller you are..

"I was just fourteen when I and my mom went to a friend's house, her friend went to the kitchen to prepare food for us, in the process, she mistakenly cut her hand with the knife while slicing the onions straight from her hands to the cooking pot, she quickly stopped what she was doing when she noticed it was bleeding, she asked my mom to help her finish with the cooking while she tend to her injury, we later ate and went back home".. I continued sobbing while he was listening, and looking more confused..

" My dad had traveled for a six month business trip to Enugu which left only mom and I, we both started falling sick and went to the hospital for treatment, and then the doctors said we were both HIV positive".. Vincent dropped his hands from my shoulders the moment I mentioned the virus, am such a script writer

"My mother's friend had the virus and that day we went over, her blood dropped in the meal she was preparing which we all ate and that was how we knew she was the one who unconsiously infected us,  the drugs for the Virus was too expensive, my dad couldn't afford it for both of us, so one day my mom went out with her car leaving a goodbye note, it wasn't an accident, it was sucide...