Meant to be

Chapter 13: Ambigous

Meanwhile inside the BB house...

"Moti baby Idhar kyun baithi hai?" Sidharth asked her as he settled next to her on the same seat in the L shaped couch. Immediately as was instinct both of them settled into each other with Sidharth's leg flung over her bent knees and put his arms around her engulfing her in a bear hug, she too wriggled and tucked her face under his neck and said "aaa dadi ka birthday hai toh soch rahi thi ke Ghar mein Kya chal Raha hai. Dadi meri ek dum chill type ki hai, koi party karey na karey voh apni mazey mein rehthi hai!" Hearing her reminiscent tone Sidharth rubbed her shoulders trying to console her and asked "miss kar rahi hai unko?" To which she gave a cynical laugh and clucked her mouth and said "nah nah mein miss nahi karti hoon, jab chothi thi bohot miss kiya tha aur samajh liya tha ke miss karne mein apni hi nuksaan hai. Abhi na ! jo aaj mere saamney hai toh hai, aaj jo hai kal ko mein expect karoongi na, mein hee hurt ho jaungi....so baby! Expectations leads to disappointment, Yahi hai na English mein? Sahi kaha mainey?" Sidharth completely baffled by her reflective tone held her tighter and said "yeah man you said it right! Lekin shehnaaz tumhay nahi lagta Kay agar kisi bhi relationship mein expectations rakhnay say hi relationships badthi hai! Jahaan expectations nahi ho vahan relationships bhi nahi badthi na!" Saying this he entwined their fingers, both acutely aware that this was not about Shehnaaz or her childhood or a random conversation any more. Sidharth was never comfortable talking about such things and he almost cursed himself for saying what he just said. He did not want to mess what he had with shehnaaz by bringing in premature terms but he was also acutely aware of the shift in the relationship between them that could not be left unacknowledged. He sighed and internally winced as he heard shehnaaz say "yeh hamaarey beech mein kya hai Sidharth ja expectations baghair ka relationship ja expectations wala relationship?" And she looked up and quickly clarified herself seeing his resigned and aloof expression "haye apni shakal dekh, mein there galey nahi padnewali, vaisay bhi bura lag raha tha ki sab log hamay tease kar rahay thay task ke waqt, aur mainay aisa kuch kaha ya dikhaya bhi nahi. Mein bas puchna chahthi thi."

Sidharth cleared his throat and paused for a bit before he said " i like you a lot! Ham Bacche nahin hain ki we are not aware of the attraction between us, aur ache dost bhi hain, lekin mein jo shehnaaz se attracted hoon, voh sirf iss ghar mein ek reality hai, Bahar meri duniya Alag teri duniya alag, hai na? Lekin idhar jo hai hamari vibe achi hai, Phir bhi last haftay bina kuch kiye tunay expect kiya aur mainay disappoint kiya? Yeh sab jaan pooch Kay nahi hua lekin ho Gaya. So baby teko shayad bura lagega but lets live in the moment, expectations, relationships sab badi cheez hoti hai aur yahan hum dono game khelnay aye hai hai na? Toh lets do that. Mein teko bohot like karta hoon, tu meko bohot strength dethi hai aur mein hamesha tere Saath hoon, lekin iss ghar mein. Bahar kya hoga tumhay nahi pata mujhe nahi pata. So let's not make any plans or promises without knowing that."

Shehnaaz, Sidharth noted with surprise did not react as normal girls would react in this situation. In his experience most girls would always want to draw more commitment than what was offered so he was further drawn towards her when she said "tu na bohot sahi pakadtha hai Sidharth, aur meko kyu bura lagega, jo kuch hamaarey beech mein ho raha hai dono ki marzi say ho raha hai, tu fikar na kar, i am Mardaani type girl....mein gale nahi padoongi. Show jeet liya trophy Mila, colors ne Cheque Diya...phir truly Teri duniya alag meri duniya alag!" Saying that she high fived him. Sidharth quickly spoke into the mic with instructions for the colors team  to cut this conversation with Shehnaaz. After he said this he grabbed her hair and whispered into her ears "baby just to make sure we are on the same page...trophy mein jeetoonga, cheque tu lelena!" They both laughed at this and went in to discuss the assignment of duties as he was the unanimous captain of the house.

Watching him talk shop with with others and watching Sidharth in his game mode on always fascinated Shehnaaz and if she was honest she found it so hot that the Sidharth who was being so honest and cute with her just a while back was being so smart and calculative now with others. She loved the little bubble they had created for themselves, she wanted to say to him that Teri duniya alag meri duniya alag maybe true outside but in here they belonged to one tiny duniya they had made for themselves.  Soon it was time for them to sleep for the night and Shehnaaz settled into the bed trying to desperately ignore the disappointment that for the next one week she would have to sleep without resting on Sidharth's chest. She had come to draw so much comfort from it. She sighed loudly and mentally chastised herself for being such an abhla naari! as she was covering the blanket over her face, she felt the bed dipped, her heart leapt thinking that it was Sidharth but only to find that it was Aarti who settled next to her and said "chal Sidharth ke waapis aanay tak mein yahi sothi hoon." Shehnaaz thought that a bad situation just got worse....she simply nodded in agreement and tried desperately to go to sleep.

In the meanwhile in the captain's room Sidharth was waiting for Shehnaaz to come to bed. He did not even for a second consider going to bed without her, after waiting for a little while he stormed out of the captain's room muttering under his breath "ek number ki Gadhi hai, bas baatein karni hai entertain Hona hai, time ka koi Khabar na khayal, i hate going to bed so late everyday" as soon as he crossed their usual bed towards the door he took a double step back and was absolute stunned to find Sana completely covered in her blanket and Arti in his place weirdly staring at him "kya hua Sidharth kuch chahiye aapko? Mein leke aati hoon, aap rest Karo" Sana as soon as she heard his name ignored the leap in her heart and stayed absolutely still and hoping no one could hear he heart beating so loudly. Sidharth gestured to Arti to be absolutely silent and quietly walked to the side of where shehnaaz was and whispered such that only she could " haan meko daal peenay ka mann kar raha hai!" And then loudly to Arti "kya app inn madam se kahengi bed partners ka matlab jab bed change hotay hain toh partners same Rehthe hain, to apna tashreef captain;s room mein leke aaye, meko neendh aa rahi hai!" Arti who was taken aback at the bold gesture from Sidharth tried to placate the situation by saying "so gayee hai shayad, kal app Khud bol de na!"
Sidharth confidently told Aarti "usnay aaj mera dimaag nahi chaata hain, Uska dinner course abhi Baki hai, voh bhooka peth toh bilkul nahi sothi, abey gadhi yeh sadee hui drama bandh kar and come fast! Don't irritate me!"

As a sheepish but wildly happy shehnaaz moved to the captains bed, she could not get herself to look into Sidharth's eye, whose gaze was intently and hotly on her.he never let his gaze drop and as she climbed into the bed, he opened the big blanket and gestured for her to get in, she looked directly into his eyes and smiled shyly and complied but found herself too shy to face him so turned her back to him and lay there, in a matter of second she felt his large arms encircle her waist and pull her firm into himself and she gasped as her entire back moved to rest against his entire self which she realized with equal measure excitement and nerves that he too was mildly aroused. She unknowingly settled further into him and shivered as she felt his arousal more surely this time. "Shehnaaz you feel so good in my arms. Thank you for coming here" he rasped into her ears. Shehnaaz was completely overcome with both desire and shyness that she turned and hugged Sidharth tight, buried her face in his chest and whispered "mujhe sharam aa Rahi hai" Sidharth chuckled with deep intimate laugh "gadhi tujhay sharam aur mujhay dharam" shehnaaz lifted her head in confusion and said. "Hain? Kya bol raha hai" Sidharth looked back at her pointedly and while he was doing that slid his hand on her back under her tshirt and single handedly unclasped her bra and started rubbing her back up and down sensuously saying "dharam sankat kyunki mein yeh kar saktha hoon lekin bas yehi kar saktha hoon, baby i am so hard for you but i respect you too much to do anything about it.so pls hug me tight and lets hope i fall asleep soon." Saying this he kissed her ont he forehead and both of them sighed a deep sigh of longing, belonging, regret and contentment.

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