The Untouchable Me

Prologue

Being alone in the middle of the unknown is not that easy. All this time, pain never left me. They're everywere, though I tried my best to escape but they're always running with me. Oh c'mon, pain really sucks.

Natawa na lang ako sa sarili kong naisip. Nasanay na siguro ako, sanay na masaktan. Sawa na sa lahat ng bagay.

"Another glass of rum, please". Bar, Bar lang ang lugar na kayang pakalmahin ang sarili ko. Here, i always felt that I'm free from everything. Minsan nga naiisip ko mag patayo ng bahay dito sa loob ng bar. Just kidding.

"Hey there! What do we have here?!" A drunk man tryin' to flirt with me. I looked at him but holy fudge he's irritating. I just rolled my eyes and didn't gave a damn.

Sanay na den ako sa mga the moves na ganan. Ang ganda ganda ko kase. Ang ganda kaya ng lahi namen. Hindi na ako magtataka na pag pasok ko palang sa loob pinag titinginan ka na. I'm flattered. Hay nako! Ganan naman ang mga lalake sa ganda lang tumitingin! Ganda ng muka, ganda ng katawan! Pag nakuha na ung kailangan, sa huli iiwan ka pa ren. Hindi naman ako bitter. I'm just stating a fact.

Suddenly, my phone rang and to my surprise my mother is calling. I didn't think twice but i ended the call. I just don't like the idea of talking to her. For so many fucking years. Why now? Bat ngayon pa sila tatawag? They hate me for being their daughter. At pag katapos nila akong palayasin, tatawag para sa ano? No crying. I'm tired of being weak.

I ordered another glass of rum and drank it without any hesitation. "Oh yeah! I'm in a bar so i have to be happy and enjoy the night". I shouted like a fully idiot, I just laugh with that thought.

Andaming tao. They are busy dancing, drinking and some of them do some nasty things. Kulang nalang kama. But I don't care. Nag sayaw na lang ako. I moved my butt. Tinaas ko den kamay ko. Parang tanga. I closed my eyes as music envelops my body.

Nahihilo na ako. I think i really am wasted. Alam ko ginagawa ko pero hindi ko kontrolado. Pero tuloy pa ren. I'm trying to make myself feel better.

I made a little more shots and chit chats with some men. Oh this is me being flirtatious. Then, i caught a man staring at me. I don't know why i have the urge to walk near him. His eyes. There's something in his eyes that is tempting. Is this a bar? Ang gwapo. I smiled at him. Feeling ko mabango rin siya. I tried to smell his scent. But, before my nose reach his neck. I puked.

I stopped. Tinignan ko siya. Hindi ko alam kung baket pero may something talaga sa kanya. My heart beats fast. Inlove na ata ako. His dark hair. With a pefect fine jaw. His lips. His pointed nose.

"Damn, woman" i heard him cussed. Bumalik bigla ako sa reyalidad. Grabe nakakatakot naman magalet. He's so intimidating. Like! Medyo natakot ako pero hindi ko binitawan ang poise ko.

"I'm so sorry, i didn't mean it" i tried to make him feel that I'm sincere. Tinanggal niya lang ung coat niya. Ang hot. Ano kayang nasa loob ng polo na yon? I gulp. What is happening to me? No no don't think that way. Tinignan niya ako ng masama, then he left and go the bathroom.

I need to go. That was embarrassing.

Dali dali akong lumabas. Pumunta ako sa sasakayan. What the! Nag alcohol muna ako. And check myself. Parang nawala ung kalasingan ko dahil sa kahihiyan na yon.

Pag karating sa bahay. Dumiretso na ako sa Bathroom. Syempre para mag linis ng katawan. After that i tried to rest but hindi ko pa ren makalimutan yung nang yare kanina.

Nag papadyak pa ako sa kama habang tinakpan ng unan ang mukha. Ano ba yan blessing na pero na purnada pa.