Dating the Boyish ✓

Chapter 18:Small Talk

She looked at me, something is in her eyes, pain.

"Hindi ko kayang tanggapin." she looked away.

Natahimik ako, parang dahan dahang huminto ang pagtibok ng puso ko.

Tangina, sumasakit puso ko.

At isa pang tangina, nagmumukha akong kaawa awa sa paningin niya ngayon.

But do I look I care? Damn, ayos lang na kawawain niya ako ngayon, I wouldn't care.

"Hangga't mayroong Anne, hindi kita kayang tanggapin." napatingin ako sa kaniya nang magsalita siya, hindi man lang tumitingin sa akin.

Nagsalubong ang makakapal kong kilay at hindi makapaniwalang tumingin sa kaniya.

Suddenly I remembered Anne, that woman! She ruined everything, how did I like that woman?

"Wala na kami, matagal na, bago pa kita nakilala wala na kami." mahinanong paliwanag ko, I don't want to make her think that I was into Anne, I don't love her anymore. I want to badly tell Vien how I'm badly in love with her.

Bumabalik nanaman ang inis ko sa Anne na 'yon. Naiinis talaga ako kapag naalala ko siya.

"She will not chase if you didn't give motive for her to chase you." sinamaan niya ako ng tingin kaya muling kumunot ang noo ko.

She's acting like a jealous girlfriend now.

I secretly celebrated, does she like me too? I mean she's jealous. Yeah, Exton, assuming ka masyado.

"She's chasing me because she can't move on." I answered her.

She smirked, hindi kumbinsido sa sinabi ko.

"That's it! She can't move on, so as you." kibit balikat na akusa niya.

Marahas akong huminga ng malalim saka sinabunutan ang sariling buhok.

Fuck!

Bakit ba mas marunong pa siya saakin?

"She cheated on me!" tila nagulat siya siya sa biglaang pagsigaw ko kaya napaatras siya. I calmed my self and took her hand, kinda apologetic, nagulat ata sa kilos ko. "I can't forgive her... siya lang ang babaeng sineryoso ko, pero nakipag relasyon siya... sa kuya ko." bulong nalang ang huling salitang sinabi ko. It still hurts kahit na matagal naman na iyon, hindi dahil sa niloko niya ako, kundi dahil ginawa niya 'yon with my brother.

Anne cheated on me... with my brother- Clay.

They both betrayed me.

Bahagya siyang natigilan pero agad din namang nakabawi.

"But that doesn't mean na hindi mo na siya mahal, like you've said siya lang ang babaeng sineryoso mo." dumilim ang mukha niya at hindi na kakikitaan ng anumang emosyon ngayon.

I sighed, she doesn't believe me.

"And that doesn't mean na hindi ko kayang mag move on sa kaniya, I need to continue with my life even without her." buong kompyansang sabi ko pero umiling lang siya.

"She loves you." halos bulong na lang na sabi niya.

I smiled bitterly, "She didn't... because if she really did love me she won't hurt me, she won't find another man, she won't kiss another man right infront of me! She doesn't deserve my love." I laughed sarcastically, she loves me? How funny.