Me and a unknown boy

Me and my feelings

My name is parmida, nearly 14 years old. I fall in love quickly and its really hard for me to break up or to forget i ever loved that boy. I care about who i wanna be in the future. My grades are good. My life is good except from the love parts.
It is so bad. Boys play with my heart like if its a football game and my heart is the ball in the middle. I feel alone even thou my friends are around. Have you ever loved a boy?
Have you ever did anything to make him happy but all you do us just making yourself embarrassed? Have you eve felt in love with many boys at the same time? Well let me tell you, i did. I felt in love with many boys. But secretly. i tried to not mention it anywhere because i was scared if he was gonna leave me. trust me there is at least one person in your life secretly loving you. I believe the person loves you secretly and you don't have that much feeling for him loves you most.