Alone

Chapter One

Author's note~ Hannah was pretty much "abandoned" in a way by her parents and her friends when she was a kid, she had essentially nobody to go to when there was an issue or if she just needed somebody to talk to. Drawing is her "escape" from the world. Though it didn't help sometimes, she still enjoyed doing it. She had fun pouring her creativity onto the paper. All the great stories she's read inspired her to write her own. Creating her own characters and story-lines is her favorite thing to do along with some of her new friends who helped out in developing the stories and contributing ideas. Hannah has a crush on a 16-year-old girl named Alexa Murphy.

Hannah's point of view:

I'm 16 years old, and I've liked Alexa for a few years now. She is 5'4", also 16 years old, and loves drawing and listening to music. I really think her and I were meant to be together. I just wish I could find a way to be un-shy and tell her how I feel. Talking to her is easy because she's really friendly. I'm not one to "make the first move." Trying to do that on top of being shy isn't exactly easy for me.

Writing is fun when I know what I'm doing, or at least when I decide on a topic. I've been writing about Alexa recently, I think she's starting to realize that I like her. Honestly, I really hope she doesn't find out from anyone else but me. I'd prefer she hears it from me because I know I can make it really sweet other than just saying "Hey, I like you", you know? I want her to like me, not think I'm sinister and "stalking" her. I really like Alexa and don't want to mess things up with her. I don't want to ruin our amazing friendship by describing how I really feel and asking her out. This is incredibly stressful for me because I don't know what her reaction is going to be or what she'll say. I'm just really nervous about all of this. I really liked her, if I can get a chance with her I won't push it and I'll do anything for her.

I like to draw, but drawing isn't really a lot of fun sometimes. I usually let my imagination run free but, I end up just drawing a wolf in the moonlight or a beautiful sunset. Sometimes I just sit at my desk and imagine holding Alexa's hand watching the sunset on semi-warm sand. It's easy for me to put my creativity on paper. I would like to eventually go to an art school. I want to see if Alexa will support this decision if we do get together. If we do get together and she doesn't support it, I won't go. Part of me would rather be with her. If she does support the idea, then I'll see what she would want me to do. I'd love to do the art class but, if she wants me to stay, I'll stay here. She is the absolute girl of my dreams and I love her a lot. I think I'm going to ask her out soon. If she says no, I'll be crushed but, I will respect her decision and we'll just be friends, if she says yes, then I'll treat her like the princess she is and I will keep her happy, loved, and cared for.

Keeping her happy won't be hard. I love her to death so keeping her happy and loved is really important to me. I have my next class with her. We'll be doing a group project for about a month and that will give me a chance to tell her how I feel. I really hope she says yes. I would have to be with her. She wouldn't have to worry about me leaving her or breaking her heart. I would never do that to Alexa.

There is a school dance coming up in a month and I want to ask her to go with me. Maybe that could be the start of something beautiful. I just know we'll be great together. I'll make it so cute that it will be hard for her to say no. I'm not 100 percent excited for this dance because I have to wear a dress; and I don't wear dresses. I despise wearing them.

It's Friday night and Alexa and I are at my house studying for an exam on Monday. A storm rolled over and she had to stay the night because nobody could pick her up and I couldn't bring her home. We took a break from studying because we've been studying for a few hours now and we shut the lights off and watched a movie. I slowly leaned over towards her and laid my head on her shoulder. As a friend, she thought I was just a little tired. That's not really why I was doing that. I finally asked her out tonight. She told me that she would give me an answer whenever she's ready. Later in the night before we both passed out, she leaned in and kissed me. At that moment, I knew she had given me her answer. I honestly can't believe that she even said yes. Knowing my luck, she would've said no. But, I'm really glad I've been given the chance to be trusted with her heart and her love. I promised to treat her like the beautiful angel that she is.

After we both fell asleep, I ended up waking up earlier than she did, I gave her a little kiss on her forehead and the little smile that came after melted my heart. I went into my room to get my phone charger and after I quietly stepped out of my bedroom door, Alexa was slowly looking up at me. I don't know what it is but, when your other half is looking at you and has a little smile when they're just waking up, it's just adorable. "Morning, cutie"Hanna said,"Hey...food", she responded with her best attempt at speaking. I ran my hand through her long, soft hair and asked "Do you want some pancakes, Alexa?" As her eyes lit up, almost instantly in a tired and quiet voice she said "yaaaayyy!". She's so adorable when she's tired, it's hard not to smile. She laid back down on the couch and watched Frozen, out of anything she chose Frozen, but she loves that movie and I listen to the soundtrack a lot so I didn't mind at all. She's just laying on the couch and I'm in the kitchen making the pancakes for us and watching little clips of the movie as I get the chance to look at the tv.

Now, we're technically on vacation right now, her and I only have an exam on Monday and then we have a break until the week after the exam so I'm no way in a rush to get this done. It's been all work and studying. We needed a nice break from all the work, especially Alexa. She's been working really really hard and I feel bad because that's all she knows. Her life has just been all work, she barely goes out and her parents usually don't like letting her leave the house unless it's a life or death emergency. The only reason she's here now is because of a snow storm. If that didn't happen, this would've gone a whole different direction. I'm glad that storm did happen, she's safe here with me and my parents. Well, sorta. My parents try to stay out of our way because they know we're working hard so they try not to bother us too much. Alexa and I were up early and nobody else was awake yet so we took advantage of that and I made us breakfast and we watched Frozen together. A little while after, my parents woke up and my mom told us we weren't going anywhere until at least Sunday night. That was good but bad news. Good in that it'll be more time to spend with her, and bad in that she won't be able to see her family for a day or two. Which, I felt bad that she had to stay longer but I knew she wouldn't have a problem with it, but she has to go home eventually. Unfortunately, we have to get back to studying tomorrow, but we're going to enjoy today and just relax and pretty much do nothing all day other than watch movies or sleep through the day because why not, you know?

Author's note~I have severe writers block and I've had it for a long time now, don't expect anything new anytime soon :(