I Fell In Love With My Best Friend

Invisible.

[A/N: This chapter is going to be a chapter where Ceska lets out her thoughts and feelings.]

Why can’t he just see me more than just a friend? Why can’t he just see that I’m the one that can fix him up.. That I’m the one who’s there for him ever since, that I’m the one who has been there to comfort him through his tough times? Why can’t he just see I can love him more than she will ever love him? I want us to be more than friends.. I want him to know how I actually feel.. But how? How can I say the things running through my head and my heart when I know for sure he is going to reject me? How can I say the three words to him when I know when I do, I am going to lose him? They say that falling in love was easy. They didn’t tell me that falling in love had its consequences. They didn’t tell me falling in love would hurt. I was in love with someone that I had no chance to be with. I was in love with someone I can never have.

Why is it that I cannot stand not seeing him, yet when I do, I feel like a million knives are stabbing my heart a million times? Why is it that whenever I am with him, I feel happy yet hurt by the fact that I can never be with him? Why is it that I feel this way towards a person I know will never feel the same way?

Invisible. That’s who I am, a girl whose feelings turn invisible whenever he’s around, a girl whose feelings will never be reciprocated. A girl that turns invisible.