you wasn't there when i needed you JJ and reader

based off the song maps

i was there for you in your darkest times
i was there for you in your darkest night but i wonder where was you

You and JJ have been bestfriends for almost a year now and you're the closest one to him out of all the pogues. No one knows about his dad except from you. The day that he got to sent jail after taking the blame for pope his dad went to pick him up.You was reading a book at home and then you heard the doorbell ring. It was around 3 am ish and you was scared that someone was going to murder you as it was so late at night. You went to the window to look outside and see who it was and you saw your blonde bestfriend sat on the doorstep with tears strolling down his face. You immediately rushed outside and held him close to you.
Y/n- JJ hey bub what's wrong
JJ looked up at you and just shakes his head meaning that he didn't want to tell you. You held his head for a few minutes and he sobbed into your arms. You was about to get up and take him inside but he dragged you down and finally spoke
JJ- he hit me y/n
Y/N- JJ who did
JJ- my dad, i can't do it anymore i tried to stay strong for you and the others but i just can't
You kissed the top of his head and saw the bruises that was left on his body
Y/n- JJ it's okay bub don't cry how bout we get you inside hey so i can take care of these and then you can sleep at mine for the night
You took JJ to the bathroom and took care of all the bruises and his scars. After you had cleaned him up you let him sleep in your bed with you and held him close to you all night.
Y/N- JJ i'm always going to be here for you i promise
JJ- i'll always be here for you too

A few months later
Recently your mum had passed away and you have been having a lot of anxiety attacks but your friends weren't there for when you need them not even JJ the boy who promised you he would.
You haven't spoken to the pogues for a while but they haven't texted you or even checked up on you so you decided too forget about them.
You are a kook but you aren't like the rest and your dad was holding a party tonight. He didn't seem to care that your mum died all he cared about was the money.
You saw a text from JJ asking you if you was going to the beach party that the pogues was holding. You was so angry at him he hasn't spoke to you for weeks and not even checked up on you and all you receive is a text message about a party.

You decided to go to the party that your dad was holding as there was free alcohol and you need to get your mind off things. A few drinks in and you could start to feel the effects. The purpose of the alchohol was to get your mind off JJ but JJ was the only person in your mind. You decided to run away from the party and you ended up on the side of the street. It was raining and you sat down on the pavement crying. A car drove past you and you saw that it was JJ. JJ noticed you and immediately jumped out of his car. He ran over to you and wrapped his coat over you and led you to the car.
JJ- what are you doing y/n it's raining you're gonna get hypothermia
Y/N- why do you care JJ?
JJ- because i promised you i'll always be there for you
Y/N- then where was you the past few weeks. my mum died jj. my mum you know how much she meant to me and i rang you so many times. i even texted you. but you never answered you didn't even read my message
JJ- i'm so sorry y/n i'm so fucking sorry you don't deserve me as a friend i messed up so badly. I haven't had my phone for a while my dad threw it at the wall and it got smashed up. I bought a new one today and i memorised your number and decided to text you. I don't know why i didn't come round to your house i should have been there and i wasn't. I get it if you don't accept my apology but please know you're the most important thing to me y/n. You mean so much to me and i don't know what i would do without you. You make me smile when i don't feel like smiling and before i go to bed i always think about you so that i can dream about you. Some people might say that i'm in love with you and to be honest i agree with them.

You looked up at JJ and saw tears streaming down his cheeks. He was shaking uncontrollably and he couldn't stop. You decided to grab him and hold him and instantly his body relaxed.

Y/N- i'm in love with you too JJ
JJ lifted your chin up from his chest and decided to kiss you. You felt sparks fly through your body and he felt the same sensation. It was like you both had been waiting for this kiss forever but youse didn't know it until now. You were soulmates