Help, I can't breathe
I'm gasping for air, but with every breath I take I swallow more fear...I'm drowning.
I am stuck, I swim and I swim till I reach the top then I lose hope give up and I fall again.
I cry but the tears disappear as I fall deeper and deeper.
My thoughts overwhelm me as I'm sinking and no one knows, even when I cry for help there is this barrier that steals all my sound, the waves from my cries push me down even further...I'm drowning.
Questions, they flow through my mind like, "Do they even know? "Was I a waste of time?" Or "why am I even still alive?"
Then I look up, even if it's far, even if it's hard, I can push, push my way to the top. Breath the air that had no fear that makes me feel strong.
The kind of strength that is so strong not even the undertow can pull me under.
The kind of strength that makes me fight for what I deserve such as life. Those questions disappear as I override my fear of disappointment, as I learn my worth.
I swim all the way to the shore, knowing that I've done this before, realizing that my mind tricked me into hiding the strength I had within me this whole entire time.
Hi to anyone who read this, I just want to say that is was one of the first pieces of poetry I wrote and felt proud of. It was just the beginning for me so I understand it might not be that good but it was the beginning of putting my emotions on paper (even though I ended up typing it out haha) So it does mean a lot to me.
