Day Fourteen: Role Play

Tony had tried to keep the fact that he had hero-worshipped Steve, or rather, Captain America, as a child a secret. Not only because it was embarrassing, but because he didn't think Steve would like that fact.

He should have known that inviting Rhodey to the team movie night was a bad idea.

Rhodey just had to comment on how hilarious it was that Tony was dating his celebrity crush.

While everyone else found it funny, especially when Rhodey showed them a picture of a six-year-old Tony dressed in a semi-decent Captain America costume, Tony noticed how Steve deflated and looked hurt.

When they excused themselves to go to bed there were arguments because how dare Steve think so little of him and believe that Tony was only dating him because of Captain America.

"I love you Steve, not some made-up ideal," Tony told him calmly after a lot of yelling and way too much honestly about how he grew to resent Captain America when he was around ten because of how much Howard loved him, more than he ever loved his son. Then, because Tony lacked a filter he rambled about how he would angrily jerk off while thinking about Captain America because, well, he was a teenager who had just realised that he liked men as well as women, Cap looked like that and Tony couldn't help how his body reacted, plus if Howard ever found out his son lusted about Captain America it would piss him off to hell and back.

"But it wasn't you Steve," Tony countered; because Captain America was whatever people wanted him to be. His image was used by all political parties to get what they wanted despite Steve clearly being very liberal in his views, though he still didn't agree with everything that party stood for. Defining political views and alignments had gotten difficult to the point where Steve just spoke up about what he cared about and believed in and spoke out when people used his image for things he was very clearly against. Using a bisexual man, who was in a relationship with a pansexual man, and who's best friend in the 30s and 40s had been a gay man though the media didn't know about that because Steve wasn't going to out Bucky when he was dead, he didn't like speaking about Bucky to the masses anyway, as a symbol for homophobic views was not a good idea. Steve had fun trolling those people though and Pepper handled filing lawsuits against those using the image of Captain America to spread hatred.

Point being, Captain America was a symbol, anyone could pick up the shield, but no one else could be Steve Rogers.

Steve apologised to Tony and admitted that he had a lot of insecurities because people only became interested in him after he became Captain America. Bucky was the only one who had cared about him before, and maybe Peggy but she didn't know him for that long before the serum.

"Steve, everyone on this team cares about you for you," Tony reassured him.

While they agreed to get some sleep Tony then decided to casually mention the time he had jerked off into a Captain America t-shirt, leaving it up to Steve's imagination as to how recent that event had happened.

With that confession sleep was put off for a round of sex first because all Steve could think about was how hot the image of his shield, the symbol of Captain America, covered in Tony's cum was.

Tony spent the next few days reassuring and showing Steve that he loved him and was dating him because he was Steve Rogers and not because he was Captain America. Okay, maybe he was laying it on a bit thick but it was because he felt guilty. Of course he loved Steve for who he was, but the whole ordeal had brought back fantasies he hadn't entertained in a while, the last time being just over a year ago after he and Steve had met for the first time.

Steve could tell that something was eating at Tony but he also knew it was best to let Tony be the one to bring it up.

When he did Tony was surprised that Steve wasn't even the littlest bit upset. He didn't even need convincing that Tony wasn't just doing this because of his past hero-worshipping, which okay he kind of was, that's where the fantasies came from, but it was also because it's Steve and he trusts Steve. He would have played out this fantasy with any other sexual partner of his past if he had wanted to act on it so badly. It wasn't like he hadn't dated strong, muscular blonds that would have looked somewhat like Cap with the costume on in the past.