a/n: TRIGGER WARNING mentions of death and suicide
"is it terrifying ?" "no I don't think it's terrifying, it's the way it is, everything comes to an end. the drip finally stops." she remembers looking down into your casket. she's been crying ever since that day, nothing is the same. after your death she couldn't bring herself to live anymore. so she decided to end it. you have always been watching over her since you've died, making sure she ate, showered, made sure she took care of herself. everyday has gotten harder seeing her like this, she cried everyday and every time she shed a tear you wanted to just pull her close and never let go. you promised yourself to be her guardian angel, at least you owe it to her. you gave up. you died and left her all alone. she should hate you. you're a hypocrite, you said you'd never leave her. but you did and you left her with pain. happy ? you had these nightmares going through ur head, distracted, you didn't notice her drop to the floor. "babe ? get up cmon get up." you cried and wailed but she wasnt moving. 'fuck it I need to help her.' you go down and you see her staring over her body. "babe what are you doing." you look at her and see all the pain in her eyes. you couldn't take it anymore and just hugged her as tight as you could. your heart ached seeing her like this. "i was done trying, I can't live without you I need you." a part of you wanted to be selfish and say yes, let's never leave each other again. all the while she was waiting for you to say the same but it didn't happen. you just sat on the bed and she followed."they say when you meet the love of your life time stops, so let's just stay here." she nods and you both just sit there with each other's company. you hear sirens in the background but you're not worried about that. you only care about her and in this moment you need to give an answer. "babe I'm sorry but I need you here, it's not your time to go yet." you turn to her and caress her cheek. "you'll forever and always be my first love and you'll forever have my heart but i hope you find someone to make you as happy as you made me." you couldn't hold back the tears that were already threatening to fall. her face got dark with sadness realizing what was happening. you could only distract her long enough before she was revived. "i don't want to leave you. there will never be another person like you, i don't want to find someone else! i love you please don't make me leave you! let me go with you! please!" you couldn't bare to look at her this sad. "I'm sorry but you need to stay here and be strong for the both of us." she looks at you with great sadness, you knew she won't quit so you pushed her. she had been revived and so you were still dead. she wakes up crying. crying harder than she did before she tried to take her life. "how could you do this to me! why do I have to stay here in pain! why can't you just let me be with you!" at this point she was hysterical. she can't hear you no matter how hard you say 'I'm here,' she can't see you, nothing. this is worse than dying. im sorry.
