I'll Love You for Another Thousand Years

Komorebi

"Guu rak mung na, Ai'Shiya Tharn."

"You're my Peter Pan
This world's so lonely without you,
Let's go back to our Neverland,
Our memories are there
Our laughter, smiles everything's still there,
You'll always be my Peter Pan,
No matter how long I have to stand,
I'll wait here for you,
Because it's not the end
I know I will meet you again."

"Ai'Thye?!" My sentiments were disturbed when Thoss called me outside the master's bedroom and knocked at the door nonstop just in time that the music stopped. "Ai'Thye! Wake up! Par Kan is here!" He shouted again. I lazily looked at the door but didn't even bother to stand up and open up for them.

"N'Thye? I'm here na kha." I heard Par Kan said gently as if she's trying to convince me to open the door for them but I remained laying on the bed.

'You're not the one I need to be here.'

One week.

It's been one week without my Hubby.

One week since I woke up from my nightmare where he saved me. But then, he's nowhere to be found.

One week.

It's been one week that I've been waiting for him inside our room. Not wanting to go anywhere just so I could welcome him if ever he came back.

But still, I remained waiting in vain.

All I can do is to stare at his photographs. Talk to it. Sleep with it.

It's like I've gone back from the time when he died and I was left alone for 20 years.

And it's tearing me apart.

That feeling. The feeling that I had before I met Tharn in this lifetime. It's back.

The feeling of komorebi.