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chapter 1

Always being a mediocre hurts the most when it comes to who you are. Because all the time you can't say you are good or bad every time when it struck whenever you are good or bad. The thing according to me is a mediocre is never a mediocre. The main point about all the mediocre is they can't really find out what they are supposed to do. I never ever believed at god. The thing is when it comes to god I am always in confusion weather I believe in him or not. Whenever I am struck I think about god. My insights never agreed to believe in god. Nor I ever wanted to believe in god. I was always struck in between weather I ever believed in god or not. Then I found one thing. In everyone's life there must be a special thing at which he must be dependent. It's a reason we can achieve everything. So I came to know I never believed in god but saying this would be hypocrisy because the amount of faith I had in him is much more than anyone else. It's somewhat critical, it's not that I believe in ram or Ganesh or anyone for that matter. But it's me. I am my god because it's me from whom I never ever expect a thing. It's me who wants me to achieve my goals without going to any mandir on my foot. It's me who always wanted to do something good. It's me my god. And its whom I have faith on. All the people who say there is a fifty percent chance that god exist are living in their own world. They are somehow confused between probability and possibility. I can get a bag of 50 crore rupee when I get home. But in what universe? That's how actually possibility works. It's a bit of confusion between facts and faith. And why not? There is always a fight between faith and facts and people confusing in between those two. And that's one of the biggest problem. We should always keep faith and facts away from each other. Science never proved existence of god nor it proved that god do not exist because it's a fight between faith and fact. For the people who do not believe in gods they are actually a liar and so are they who actually believe in god. What is the point in fight of teaching and researching? The two are different and they must be kept apart. They both have their meaning nor they are related nor they should be. They are two different things so are facts and faith. The one who don't believe n gods are the one who mostly enjoys all the festivals and why not? If someone says they if someone don't believe in god the should also not believe in festivals are also wrong. It's always been a pointless discussion. Festivals according to me never should promote believes in god or something but they should promote humanity. Someone once said to me if you didn't read Ramayana there is no point celebrating Diwali then they are wrong. Because I never knew why 'Eid is celebrated but I have always enjoyed biriyani of my friend's house on 'Eid. Btw while talking to the problem of older generation I may also talk about their perks. Because the point is my generation is the worse. The older generation was at least never breaking. The problem is our generating is full of broken people and broke hearts. Can't be a hypocrite but I am also one of them. we try to fit where we don't belong rather than finding our right place. Damn ram mandir or the masjid who cares we are generation of broken and molten choices. We always rely on others to make our own judgements. Why bjp won?? I have the correct answer because namo had the thing which manmohan didn't had is how and what to say. We say empty glasses make more noise but we rely on govt. which says all the good stuff. Where are our own thoughts? I have the answer!!! Nowhere....... we make our opinion on Instagram posts. Whatever is trending always cover over what is important. As we forgot how intellectual our monmohan Singh was. One speech, thousands of memes and we all started namo. I am not saying its wrong or anything else but we say empty glass make more noise and we make memes on how silent our pm was. If this isn't hypocrisy than what is?
A generation of broken hearts do our opinion matters until we all come out of our own world? Always blaming other for whatever happened and all. Being the biggest democracy is it right to not have our own opinions?
A thing to remember is that we must solve our own problem first right??? Want to make a ram mandir? Why? is it even necessary to fight on a piece of land? Its our ego actually which we always tend to satisfy! And why not? It's what we have remaining after all being a generation of people which rely on tweets to make our own thoughts.
Actually its mot what can be helped!! After all, broken heart is also a crucial part of our generation? Why can't we be happy on what we got? Because we are not meant to be! And how hard it is to admit? If we all start to be happy on what we got there will be no chance of development and is it something too hard to admit? No right? Do we want our next generation even worse than ours? There is no meaning in all of these conspiracies and all.
Okay now one thing is that we all do anything for only one sake!! For our happiness. the people saying, they are doing something to make their parents proud and all. It's their happiness hiding and there is nothing wrong in that. Why not? After all we are seeking is our happiness!! And it's a thing to be proud of!! After all happiness is the ultimate key right? Mom you saved 5000 just to give us. I never understood why you did so but the point is seeing you children's happy makes you happy too......and that's what we all are perusing right? And that is nothing to be ashamed of. After all we live once right.
Some people get happiness in money some gets happiness in seeing that one beautiful smile at their parent's face. They all are different but the point is there is always been a single goal that is happiness. We say a billion dollar can buy everything but not happiness. That's true but in return we say it's better to cry in a lambo than on street. That's true but on a perspective. And so if we are talking about everything here is a thing you won't be broke all your life. It sounds filmy but there is a truth that is if it's not a happy ending then it's not an end yet. Look doesn't matter if its correct or not. The only thing that matters is that it gives you hope or not. That is the whole point. No matter how broken you are the thing is there is always a silver lining to all the clouds.
Now to all the heartbroken people and all look like I said we are generation of broken hearts and broken people you think your life is bad someone's else life is even worse. Its again like comparing teaching and researching. So what everyone's broken? The thing that binds us all is the point that we all are on the same path of searching true happiness. Maybe all our paths are different but our stories are same our goal is same that is our happiness.
What some people may think is bad for someone it may be a pursue to happiness. That's why one great soul said hate the sin not the sinner because the sinner is also on the same path on which we are. On the path of finding happiness. And after all that is thing that matters. Some say money can't buy happiness. That's true because I too have seen best couples fighting over money. But it does not say that there were not great lovers when we didn't had concept of money. So where did that unconditional love went? It's wrong to say that our generation doesn't know the meaning of true love. It's absurd saying that I don't know what true love is. I have learnt love from my mother and that was unconditional. If someone says that I don't know what actually love is then my answer is I have learnt love from my mother how can it be wrong. She loved me before I was even born. How I couldn't learn? Yes, I can't love as much as my mom loved me but it doesn't mean that I don't know what love is. if someone says it can't be learned it can only be felt then I did felt it in the warm cuddle of my mom's hug. I felt when my dad shouted at me. I felt when a piece of thread meant a promise of lifetime. So how I can't know it. I had actually felt it.
So basically where did we went wrong? We knew how it felt and what it meant then why half of us are still broken finding love? The answer is still hiding in the question. The point is we are seeking for love. And the major disadvantage in seeking something is somehow we forget to respect what we hat. A candle which gives us light its shadow is always black. We seek to find love but in that process we forget what really love is. Something we try to seek which we already have. So why can't we proudly say what we seek. So what your previous relationship was a drag? Why not just move on why is it so hard to accept that "if it's really meant to be happen it will happen" making fun of someone who has never been in a relationship rather than respecting him for waiting. Why is it so important to have bff's!! We all had someone who kept us in her womb for straight 9 months without saying anything! Haven't we got much more love than we actually deserved?
Look the basic point is to search for happiness. But it is even considerable to find love leaving people who always loved us and shifting to some who will never love us that way! It's not something I oppose but it's something which we shouldn't seek and yes if it's meant to happen it will happen.