I'll Love You for Another Thousand Years

My Soldier

We went upstairs but instead of opening my bedroom door, I stared sadly at the master's bedroom door. I can feel Thoss staring at me but I couldn't care less. I miss Tharn. I miss sleeping with him. I miss his kisses. His hugs, his touch, his laughs. Everything about him.

"You know you can check on him before going to sleep, Ai'Thye." Thoss whispered and I smiled wryly as I looked at him before I shook my head.

"I might not be able to stop myself if ever I talk to him." I said as I opened my bedroom door. I heard Thoss sighed before going inside his own room. I leaned against the door after closing it and once again let out my frustrations by crying. I slowly sat on the floor and hugged both of my knees as I cover my mouth to stop myself from sobbing. Few more moments and I began to pull my hair.

'Why the fuck is this happening to me?! Can't I just be happy with my person?!'

I looked at the mark on my palm and all I can feel is hatred. Hatred towards the person who gave me this.

'What did I do to deserve this? Isn't it enough that I can see some dead people suffering?'

I leaned my head against the door and looked around the room. There's no way I would let Tharn sacrifice his own existence just to save me.

"This time, Ai'Tharn. Let me be the one to protect you. Let me win this battle for you."

***

I can see how the kidnapper carried the young Thye towards the building. He's holding him recklessly like a fucking sack of rice.

"N-no!" I shouted but he didn't hear me. I followed them inside the abandoned building and saw how creepy and dirty the place is. The kidnapper proceeded upstairs and I followed him. I saw how he threw my young body towards the chair and tied me tightly as if I could escape from this dreadful situation. Then he stood up as he fish his phone on his pocket and face towards my direction I don't know if it's possible but he's staring at me.

"Well, well, well. Look who's here?" He mockingly said as he took his gun from his back and aimed at me. "Are you trying to save yourself, Nong? I'm sorry but if I can't have the little boy, might as well just take you with me. Let's go to hell together!" I was startled when he screamed. His eyes slowly turning red. I tried stepping back but my feet felt numb. I just stared back at him with wide eyes as he walk towards me, his gun still pointing at my direction. "Weaklings like you deserves to die, Nong. We'll go to hell together." He then clicked the gun's safety before aiming at me. But before he could even pull the trigger, I heard a familiar voice calling my name. I looked at the owner of the voice and saw him. The man who had saved me from my nightmares when I was Type. The soldier who fought for me back then as he tried to save me from my past. I remember it clearly. How he watched me every night just so he could stop me from having nightmares about the prick who molested me. And I can clearly see that he's here in my dreams to save me again. Even if it costs him his own existence.

'N-no! This is not happening. Tharn is not dream walking. He's not risking himself just to save me.'

But who am I kidding? The man who's holding my hand while we ran out of the building is none other than my person. He's saving me. He's taking me away from that dreadful situation just like the old times. He really is my soldier.

And when we thought that we had lost the kidnapper, we both looked at each other. And realization hit me.

"Ai'Tharn! Why did you do that?" I said while panicking. "You don't have to!" I screamed because of frustration as I see him smiling at me. I began to cry nonstop. "Ai'Tharn! Why?! Why?!" I said as I held both of his hands and put it on my face just so I could feel him. Just so I could keep his touch. He smiled at me as he tried to wipe my tears.

"You know that I would do anything just to save you from your traumas, right?" He said and I shook my head and cried even more.

"But I might lose you after this! I can't lose you, Ai'Tharn! I can't live without you! You're such a cheater! Why do you always have to go ahead of me?! Why do you always want to leave me?!" He was stunned because of what I said. Tears started to fall down his cheeks as he held my face up to face him.

"You know that leaving you is the last thing that I would want to do. But nothing can stop me from saving you, Ai'Thye." He said as he pulled me in for a tight hug. "Even if it cost me my existence. I'll always choose to save you. I am your soldier." He whispered against my ear. He said that, right before he vanished into thin air. Right before he left me standing there while crying.

'I don't think if he was really able to save me from my nightmare. Cause I realized that the real nightmare that I could ever have is that of losing him.'