5 years ago......
I opened my eyes in the morning and to a new day.I don't want to go to school,but don't get me wrong...I'm not a lazy person.The only thing wrong with me is that I fear a group of "friends" that decided that I'm an idiot ,worthless,a bitch that shouldn't even exisit.I wonder what they will call me today....a bipolar freak or a ugly bitch? My two friends Jason and Orlando don't seem to notice what's happening to me..they don't even realize I'm bipolar! But it's better this way,I don't want to see them suffer with me....no one should suffer because of me.
After I arrive at school,Jason greets me and we stay like always in silence....as usual.As soon as I'm alone the group of bitches come to me with bitch-in-command,Alejandra. She smiles at me and says:"Hello bipolar freakshow",the irls behind me begin to laugh with her.I said nothing and went to my hiding place....(A.K.A. the library) and curl up in a dark corner and cry......not giving a f*** of who saw me.
After school ended,I forced a smile on my face and greeted my mom.I always pretend that everything was fine to my friends and family.But at night every single day I cried and begged God to kill me,but I renembered my beloved ones and I lied to myself about that I wanted to live not die.I kept this life span untill October 13 or so....I was at the point of not bothering myself to keep up with time.My friends sawe that something was up and said things like "What's wrong?" "You okay?",they tried to cheer me up,so I had to force myself to cheer up but on the inside it killed me that Jason,Orlando ,and Hector noticed and were worried about me so much.
That day something snapped inside me.....maybe the words or they trying to throw trash at me,I didn't speak at all or at leat I renember like that.When I got home I wrote good-bye post-its because I didn't want to delay my death.I rounded up some blades and some pills I took a shower and took like 5 pills and began to shave my eyebrows.When I looked at the mirrow I yelled my parents yelled too and took me to a shirnk.When I went back to school I wasn't the same girl......I became an Ice Queen,numb not feeling anything out of fear.Maybe if you asked people that knew me only that time they would describe me as a cold,sarcastic girl.
