Somethin' tells me I can't fix it
God knows that I've tried
For years and years I've felt this
It's lived through many fights
And you all may not ever see it
But it's bigger than all my fears
Darker than a bottomless pit
Sometimes it even disappears
It'll disappear only temporarily
Then it'll come back bigger
When I feel like I've fought this
It only digs in so much deeper
It is way beneath my skin
Maybe it's one with my blood
All I know is it feeds off of me
And to die, it'll never give up
Some days I feel stronger
Than the darkness living inside
Then other days I'm scared because
I don't know what it can hide
I know it holds all my insecurities
Also holds all my troubles
It dangles my failures over me
Sometimes the energy comes in double
Like a tick, sucking everything good
This hold is making me weak
I try to fight back but the weights
Yanking me back to my knees
I can't find a solution
I'm unhappy with my reflection
All I want to be is happy
But I know I can't be perfection
So for now I'll hold my weight
And hold onto every breath
Because I do know I'm here for a reason
Time will tell the rest
