Military Luv

Military Luv 3

Waking up the next morning was something i did not want to do. I laid in bed just thinking about the events of last night and wondering how our friendship would forever change. Seb lay next to me still sleeping he looked so peaceful and sexy it should be a crime. I was dreading the moment he would wake up. Apparently i was so lost in my thoughts i had not realized he was awake staring at me.

"Lily... what are you thinking about?"

"Just how things will be different now and what is out friendship now? I'm just now not sure what to think of us. I mean Seb you got to understand last night was amazing, a dream come true honestly."

"Lily, i'll be honest I'm not sure what this means for us either. You know what kinda of life i live but ill be honest with you also, last night was a dream come true for me too. Lily i have to come see you every chance i get because Well i have really strong feelings for you and you not being in my life or not talking or seeing you would hurt to much. But again you know the life i live and you know i don't wanna settle down yet. We are to young we got so many years ahead of us."

By now i was in tears it was like he was telling me he loves me but he doesn't want to be with me at the same time. He wasn't making any sense to me, he wants me and needs me in his life but he doesn't want to be with me or even give it a try. He was ripping my heart out and stabbing it without even knowing.

"Well Seb I Love You i have always loved you from the moment we meet and first talked i knew you would have an effect on me like no other but if that's the way you feel i can respect that but i think it would be best if you cut this trip short a few days."

"Lil..."

"No Seb like you said last night was a dream come true for both of us but i think we need some time apart. I need some time from you to get myself back together and move pass this i hope you can understand that but i would like to ask for just one more night. Just one more night all feelings out for the last time then we take some time apart for awhile you skip seeing me for one trip and go visit family and friends back home. Deal?

By now Seb had set up in bed and was looking down at me. Running his hands through his hair and down his face he finally agreed.

We got up and went about our day like usual, like nothing had changed last night but in the back of my mind as the day went on i would think and dread what was to come after that night.......