IMPOSSIBLE

Chapter 1(Arkward)

     Standing weakly around the counter, he walks comfortably and lays his dirty hands with long neat round sharped fingers on top of the counter .For a moment I think to myself "what the fucking hell is always wrong with this guy !does he literally think that I don't know who the hell he is and why he has his nasty self around my shop?"my thoughts are shortly interrupted by a small faked cough and so fast withdraw my"may-be" crazy thoughts and concentrate on serving my "customer".
What may I do for you ?I ask in a nearly weak voice that sounded a little desperate ..."I need a packet of sugar,salt ,flour and washing soap "
    I walk over the shelves and pick up the items for him but by this time he's already making himself comfortable on the bench that had just been placed near the exit door .I place the items on the counter and quickly asks him for money ,,he walks over the counter and hands me the money laying his filthy fingers on my right hand ,,,the squeezes it so hand in between his both hands and stares at me as if we knew each other.
    By this time I can feel my whole body heat raise up and by the raise of my adrenaline I can tell that I sure like this guy .To me he appears more of a cool,kind ,sexy gentleman but his physical appearance by this time disqualifies all that.
     It had been just two days since I set my eyes on this guy ,this time looking different ,clean and friendly .I tried to make my presence known to him by frequently passing through the corridor that he happened to have been having a chat with his friends but he seemed to care less about all that .
      "Hey ,my name is Trevor and have seen you around for quite a couple of days now ",he gently says flithering his fingers under my palm."I was hoping that you wouldn't mind if I had a couple chats with you".
       What the fuck would be wrong with this guy!did he think I was one of these village girls that everyone boy around was used to messing around with!?Actually I had just completed two months around since I left the city to join my mother in a new workplace and everything around here was getting so obvious and boring for me ...no guy had actually got the guts to approaching me leave alone saying "hi" since I stepped my foot in that village so for a second I was wondering who the hell was he thinking he was...did he think I was a cheap village girl?!I chuckled through my thoughts .
        "Hey,"he interrupted with his horsey sexy voice that made him sound like a gentleman this time his grip on my hand so tight but anyway I was not about to give in to a total stranger who by then looked like a very sweet guy.
        I quickly withdrew my hand from his and sternly looked at him ushering him so bitter words ,for a second you'd think its someone I had know for a very long time."Next time you walk in here don't dare tell me that nonsense ,am not one of these girls around here that you guys joke around with,"I sternly say that to him .He looks me with a down faced face almost wondering why a good looking girl like me and almost kind looking would sound so rude."well can I have my items back and take your filthy money away,"I said with a faint sound wishing that he'd notice how much I really liked him and not return the items but say it back that he liked me too.
    Well this guy was the silent type ones .so instead of ushering me back with bitter words he just shook his head showing me how disappointed he was and left my shop without even picking anything he had bought off my counter.
       I turned over and over and rolled in between my smelly sheets that had barely touched water for a very long time .I couldn't help but think of how mean I happened to be to a guy who completely appeared selfless and so loving ...my actions killed me slowly by slowly and I couldn't wait for a new dawn so I could go back in the shop and wait for somebody I never knew that would ever return to come by so that I would pour my heart out about how I felt for him and how sorry I was about the previous day .I could feel my eyes getting heavy with sleep but I couldn't help staying awake and thinking about Trevor.