Second time

Clarke's short trip to Arkadia had been a success : Pike had been ousted by his own people because of his abuse of power and a lasting peace with the Grounders was being established.

All this had been done in just two weeks, and everything was now under control. The blonde had then decided to return to Polis as the ambassador of the 13th clan, but obviously that was not the only reason. She couldn't wait to see Lexa again, she had missed the brunette very much. As soon as she arrived, she had to report on the situation in Arkadia in front of the Heda and the other ambassadors. And finally, at the end of the evening, Lexa and her were in Clarke's room, enjoying their reunion.

They had fallen asleep quickly after the night they had just spent. A night of passion and sweetness, as their relationship.

Lexa woke up first. She could barely open her eyes, dazzled by the few rays of sunlight escaping from the window. The brunette could feel Clarke's chest rise and fall as she breathed. Her arm was still wrapped around Lexa's belly. They had indeed fallen asleep in the "spoon position" and the commander was surprised that they were always in the same position, as Clarke was often a restless sleeper.

After a few minutes, Lexa delicately removed the arm of the blonde who was blocking her stomach and decided to turn back to her still-sleeping companion. A few strands of blond hair falling on her face and lit up by the dawn light, Clarke looked like an angel and Lexa couldn't help but marvel at the sight. She cleared her serene face somewhat before standing up and leaning against the headboard. She looked straight ahead, letting her mind wander.

- You think so hard that you're keeping me awake...

- Oh... did i wake you up ?

- No, said Clarke with a slight wry smile. Actually I've been awake for a few minutes already, but you were so focused that you probably didn't even notice.

Lexa smiled back. There was a slight silence in the room before Clarke spoke again.

- What were you thinking about ?

- Us...

The questioning look of her lover encouraged her to continue.

- I was thinking about our first meeting, about Finn, Pauna, my betrayal at Mount Weather. We've been through so much, and yet here you are with me...

Clarke straightened up slightly, leaning on her elbow so she could see Lexa.

- I forgave you for that, it's in the past.

- I know. But I won't never be sorry enough for everything I've done. I've done terrible things...

- You're not the only one. Who we are and who we have to be to survive are two very different things.

- I made you kill the man you loved.

- I made that choice on my own, you didn't force me to do anything. Finn had killed innocent, defenseless people, including children. He wasn't himself and I don't think he would have been able to be himself again.

Clarke stopped talking for a moment. She thought that talking about Finn again would be painful, but it wasn't, or rather it wasn't anymore. She had managed to forget him, to move on, and it was thanks to Lexa

- Besides, I don't know if I ever really loved him...

- What do you mean?

- I liked him, of course, and I thought I was in love with him, but I wasn't.

Clarke had lowered her eyes during her last words, but then she looked into Lexa's eyes.

- The feelings I had about him were nothing compared to those I have right now.

She paused briefly before saying THE words.

- I love you Lexa.

At these words, the brunette smiled. A sincere and happy smile. She'd hoped so much that one day Clarke would feel the same way. And finally that day had come, Clarke had kissed her and they had sex for the first time before the blonde had to leave for Arkadia. Then she did it again a second time, just last night. But even after that, Lexa didn't believe it. It all seemed like an illusion, but those three words made it real.

Clarke didn't specifically expect a response from the commander, and in fact she didn't want an answer : she knew what the brunette had gone through in her relationship and how hard it had been. They were both heartbroken, but not in the same way. She didn't want to rush her or scare her. Tears of joy began to flow from the corner of the brunette's eyes, running down her cheeks. That's why Clarke decided to intervene. She put her hands on Lexa's cheeks, forcing her to look into her eyes and wipe away her tears with her thumb.

- Lexa, are you...

But she couldn't finish her sentence, Lexa's soft lips had just crashed into hers. Lexa had put so much energy into it that Clarke had tilted slightly backwards. Their tongues met quickly, repeating a wild dance. Breathlessly they moved away from each other, but they stayed very close together, their eyes still closed. The commander finally came and placed her forehead against Clarke's and whispered.

- I love you too Clarke, with all my heart.