Usually you would never find yourself sitting outside on a park bench staring at children, but today is an exception. Thoughts about h/n have been plaguing you for a while now and now you have to clear your mind outside even though you'd be much happier staying inside and browsing cornhub.com on a warm sunny day like today. The children at the park are playing right now and you can't help but wonder why you can't be as happy as them. It's a warm sunny day today and the kids digging holes in the sand are actually enjoying the weather. Unlike you. You're just staring at them while thinking about your inability to look at hot corn. Thanks to him, of course. h/n has been replacing your thoughts lately and it's been driving you crazy. Putting your head in your hands, you sigh and make the mistake of closing your eyes for a second. All of a sudden, all you can see is his face. The color of his eyes. The feel of his hands running along your body as you breathe in his smell. And then.. You shake your head as your eyes open. "wHat am I doing? i should be LOOking at children right now, not thinking about h/n..." Then you shake your head again. "Now i sound like a pedophile what's wrong with me?" You get up silently as more anger and confusion plagues you again. THE PARK WAS useless aND YOU shouldn"T be feeling this way. h/n is nothing but a friend. A FRIEND. Having sexual fantasies about friends is not okay. You start walking home, deciding to take the long route because you want to have an internal conflict. "I'm an idiot," you mutter to yourself. "Thinking that I can actually stop thinking about h/n is impossible. That only makes me think about h/n more! I should just stop. I don't even like h/n that way! h/n is just a friend and i should know that by now." you stop talking and start walking in silence, still mentally berating yourself as you continue. But then you stop as you see a familiar silhouette in the distance. crap, you think to yourself. i fOrgot that h/n's house is this way. "y/n, is that you?" h/n asks in his deep, sexy voice. oh no what do i say now? you think to yourself. BUt you smile anyway. "oh h-hello h/n i just happened to be wlaking by and i saw you two lovely nekos walking. how you doin'? i-i mean, h-hi h/n how are you t-today?" h/n smiles. "Oh, y/n you're so funny. But thanks for asking. I'm doing just fine." You see his smile and feel your own lips form the same shape despite yourself. "That's good." You stand there awkwardly, remembering that you were supposed to say something but forgetting what. Finally, you attempt to use your vocal chords. "Actually, h/n, i have to go.." h/n cuts you off. "you know what, y/n?" "what?" "i actually wanted to talk to you, so could you come inside?" Heart pounding, you wonder if this is actually a dream. You follow h/n inside his house anyway where he leads you straight to his bedroom.
