Alone I'm Broken, But With You I'm Complete [ A Paul love and Imprint story]

Chapter 15 So Different, Yet So Similar!

'Well all day really' she said her voice turning sad, but then her voice perked up 'Well it's about 10 now, so how about we meet at like 12 o'clock. As you sound as if you just got out of bed' she laughed 'and you properly want time to wake up and get ready' she added to make her point.

'Sounds good' I told her smiling. 'You wanna meet at dinner so we can eat some dinner'

'Sounds tasty' she laughed. 'You wanna go to the beach after'

'Sounds hot' I laughed and she joined in. 'See you in a bit'

'See yah'

The phone line went dead telling me she'd put the phone down. I got up from leaning against the wall and went back to my room to get ready for the day. I got changed, brushed my hair and teeth with of course avoiding looking in the mirror and added a bit of make up to cover the dark bags under my eyes that were starting to get worse with the more time I stayed here.

After that I made sure I had everything, wrote a note and stuck it to the fridge. Than grabbed an apple on my way out the door. I didn't want to hang around to wait for dad to get up. I had done my best to avoid being in the same room alone with him, because I didn't want the talk that was going to come. My stomach churned in the guilt of everything and how he must feel of me. I put my apple in a bin that we passed as I couldn't eat it no longer.

I pushed the way the thoughts, thou my stomach still churned and looked at my clock. It was 11. Which meant I still had two hours to kill. I didn't feel like walking around and seeing old places. I didn't want old memories to return, well more than what already does anyway.

FLASHBACK FROM MEMORY

The bell ranged letting people know it was the end of the day at school and it was three years after my mother's death. I'd had the entire facade covered for a couple of years now. I was the perfect daughter at home as the eldest I was the responsible one. When my dad wasn't able to hold himself together I had to. I had to be strong and hold everything together for everyone. I took care of everything and made sure everything that needed to be done was done. I was fine and I had been for some time. Well to everyone I was and I wasn't giving them no reason to believe any different. Except for me! I couldn't make me believe that.

I missed my mum so much and everything was my fault!

"Hey Rachel" a mocking voice shouted as a demand that made all heads turn in my direction in the corridor.

I turned. Sandra! Of course who else. I should have know who it was before I even thought to turn around. Sandra had given me hell for sometime now. A few months after my mother's death Sandra had decided to point me out by embarrassing and humiliating me instead of ignoring me.

"You should really be upset more you know" she said like I was stupid for not being. "Your mother was the only one that cared about you" she says coldly with a laugh.

The mention of my mother was like a stab to my chest. I never cared with what she said usually as well as all the laughing and agreeing of the others. It was the mention of her. My mum!

"Did you not hear me no one cares about you" she says coming closer to my face till we were an inch apart that I would only need to give a slight shift to touch her. I kept my eyes locked on hers, like I always did not willing to let her have the satisfaction of knowing how the words of my mum affected me. 'No one" she said laying each word out like I couldn't understand. Laughter joined her from the crowd. "Where is your mum Rachel?"

I took an intake of breath as if to help me stop the tears that were threatening to come curling down my face.

"Sandra stop!" Katie Hedge shouted with hate and disbelief as she wedged her way through the crowned till she was at my side.

Sandra laughed "Oh come on Katie!" she said with frustration mixed with her joy. "I'm only stating the truth" she giggled.

I couldn't take no more. I started pushing through the crowned as the tears started to flow.

"Rach" Katie called lagging behind me getting stuck in the crowd. "Rachel wait!" now yelling. I couldn't as soon as I was free of the crowd I started running.

I didn't know where I was going. I just knew I couldn't stay there. Eventually I stopped running with tears still falling. My spot came into view. My subconscious knew where to go, thou I didn't. This was my peace. The one place I was a loud to crumble and fall. The one place I didn't have to hold it all together. This was my place.

END OF FLASHBACK FROM MEMORY

Tears were falling once more. I breathed in deeply trying to get myself to stop. I looked up to find my feet had done it once more. They'd took me to my old spot. I sat down and looked at my clock it was almost 12, which meant I had been deep in my memory for some time. I signed and wiped my eyes as the tears still kept coming.

"I see why you like this spot" a voice suddenly spoke besides me and an arm reached out making me jump and stand up out of fear breathing heavily.

"Woah, sorry didn't mean to scare you" It was Paul! He stood up too and wrapped his arms around me pulling me close for a hug in comfort and apology.

I put my head on his chest trying to even out my breathing "okay, it's okay". I said more to myself than him as it freaked me out as I thought he had been Tom and he had found me.

He rubbed my back in comfort and rested his head on my shoulder ."You sure your okay, cause you don't sound it" he asked full of concern and his hands still repeatedly rubbing my back. I felt his warmth through my clothes, which helped reassure me for some reason.

"Yeah I'm fine" I told him in away like I believed it myself. I stated to pull back from his hug.

"No you're not!" he said stating it and hugging me to him a little tighter that made me not able to move out from his grasp. "I get that you don't want to tell me. I respect it. Just don't pretend to me okay. I know that you do. So don't try to denie it. I do it, thou not with you. Just don't do it to me".

I stiffened . I really didn't know what to believe with it came to him anymore. I felt like we connected on higher level and I'm pretty sure he felt it too. We were so different, yet so similar.

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Thanks for reading. I am so proud and happy of myself to update this quick. I know it has been a little while since I updated last, but is much quicker than last time. I was going to write more for this chapter, but felt was a good place to stop.

Next time Rachel will talk with Lila! I will try to update as soon as I can and I'm sorry for any spelling or vocabulary mistakes.

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