Is it love or hate

Too much effort

Miyah
Will he ever fucking love me the way I love him!? Godd can he even see me I'm i fucking mirror to him. He never sees me he just sees himself cuz that's all he cares about

What did I do to even make him treat me this way

Every single day he likes pictures on Instagram of models but u can't even post a pic of us or even watch my story

He doesn't even listen to my feelings he doesn't give a fuck

But I do! I wanna let go of him

But I can't

Everytime he breaks the fucking glass I'm always there to pick that shit up with my hands and guess what!....I get hurt over and over

"Miyah!",go away! Taylor,"it's not Taylor",leave me alone Dre

"Why do u refuse to talk to me I'm your Bestfriend!?",because I choose not to why is that a problem!,

"Open this fucking door or I will break down! Your not in a good state and u need me u know u do I don't see anybody else trying to comfort your ass!"

Ondreaz nothing u say or do will make me stop loving him it's impossible okay!
My mind tells me to leave all the time! I want to but my heart says stay I can't just leave him like that!

"Nothings impossible when it comes to u ! And what if he left u guess what? He would have no fucking emotion but he will when he realizes what he had lost so leave him!"

Why so u can shoot your shot!? Get the fuck away from my door!

"No what when he breaks your heart again don't bother fucking calling me! Because Bestfriend's don't do this shit! You keep pushing me away! And yea I would because your all a guy could ask for!"

And with that he walked away

He walked away! I just lost my Bestfriend! Am I fucking stupid!? He's all I have

Ondreaz was there when I needed him the most! I still need him I- he has to be outside!

*runs outside to see him in the parking lot crying his eyes out*

Ondreaz I'm sorry! Please

"Go away miyah u done enough! Yea your boyfriend doesn't know what the fuck he has but neither do you!"

I know what I ha-

"That's what I thought get away from my car"

B-but I need you

"U don't need me u never will u need Taylor because u must love getting hurt and thats something I can't do"

Please no! Don't leave me! Can we just talk this out your my Bestfriend!

"Your so fucking bipolar!"

He left for real because of me

I keep pushing everyone away and kick them out of my life at the times I really need them
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"Babe I'm home!"

"Hello!"

"Oh baby wake up"

Hm wait what time is it?

"You look like you been crying"

Because of you I whispered

"Exuse me?"

I said it's nothing I lied