"brother are you okay?... You haven't been eating much... you have only drink alcohol and never bothered to speak unless you're going to hit me...."
His his soft gentle hand held onto my shoulder as he pulled me into a hug. The words echoed through my head unless you're going to hit me I am broken without her. Everything is fading. The sun has stopped turning. The Stars aren't so bright. The birds stopped singing their Happy song. everything sounds like static the only thing I can hear is the bad things. "Stop being an alcoholic" "big brother you hate me..." Those damn words keep on echoing through my head it feels like a hammer pounding against my skull. The tears welling up in my eyes couldn't help either out of instinct i instantly elbowed my brother away. I heard his Yelp of pain and then a thud before everything went silent. I truly am a monster. I am hurting my family without even meaning it its just out of instinct. Why did she have to die and leave me alone to suffer? The alcohol and drugs are just making it slightly better but the pain is growing every single day.
"Why?" I mumbled with my gravelly voice. "Why do I hurt people?" And everything went slightly clearer as I heard my brother whisper those cruel words "it's cause she passed away.. you are hurting everybody because she hurt you by leaving this world" I felt the anger boiling me every single second as a tick to by I felt a growing urge to instantly hurt my little brother. "You better take that back.." i growled and I slowly faced him everything becoming more clear as the only thing that I'm focusing on was him. I could hear my little brother letting out a little whimper. "Luci. Take back those words" but all Luci did was just shake his head as a no.
*Slap*
The slap was so powerful I could hear an echo through the room. A powerful silence was in the room until it broke out with the whimpers and cries of my little brother. "Luci, I. I didn't-" then I feel a pain across my face. "I fucking hate you! All you do is mope around drink alcohol and cry over somebody who died! You never cried this hard when our mom died!" I heard my little brother hiss with anger. Then I heard a door slam all of a sudden I saw everything again but it wasn't color it was grey, black and white... I realized the curse fell upon me again. Until I meet another real true love I won't be able to see color...
Why... Why did you die?
I... I hate you but I love you... You broke me... So I'll break the others... Remember. You made me do this. You made me into the bad guy. I'll show nobody Mercy. Everyone shall bow down at me as a smile with Glee but the smile shall be fake since you are not here to appreciate my work...
