Overlooked

Chapter 1. Beginning stages of a monster

As a young child I was spoiled to the root but only because I didn't have my dad in my life. My mother used to hold me when I cried at night. But it's different when you have so many men in and out your life. You want a father figure but they all stay 1 night. My sister growing up was doing what she do. Momma at work so my sister doing what she do. I don't know where my father at but I always seen him. On the light rail before the pledge of allegiance. I always wanted to know what having a dad felt like. My grandfather off the drink and my momma party day and night. I mean she had a job like an adult supposed to. Her husband used to hit her and asked me what I'm going to do. I was too small and I sure as hell wasn't going to jail. My momma so broke she wouldn't been able to afford my bail. Grandmother had cancer two times she lost a breast. My people never knew how to budget a check. I always wanted to take my anger out on somebody without respect. But then I look at myself and ask myself what's next.

My aunt was my real mother even tho my momma was present. I feel like my love was hurt since a adolescent. I hated myself because of the flaws I thought everybody else seen. But then I woke up because life isn't a dream. It what's you make it so I took it the route it had to be taken in. My father told me I'm going to be in a better predicament.

It's cool to love but it's great to be nonchalant. Because being hurt is the joint to where the pain starts. Then you need protection, from your own selective, way of thinking like you don't know what to check then. You get bottled up like you can't take it no more. Next thing you know you on channel 6 wondering why you in this predicament. Because it all starts at home and it's starts with a father. That's the reason I thought about becoming a author.