Matatagi Hayato is Scared of Tomorrow

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I've been in good relationship with Matatagi Hayato, the member of both soccer and track club in my highschool. I spend my highschool's sweet-bitter experiences with him and i never stop feeling grateful everytime i remember about every good things happen between us.

I love Hayato so much.

Since his mother passed away when he was in elementary school, he need to take care of his 2 brothers in young age. He and his 2 little bro could survive until now because his father keep sending him money to go through life. He refuses to stay with his father because he still can't forgive his dad because leaving his family, especially when his mom sick.

I live alone too in this town. My parents divorced when my first debut as a highschoolers girl was happily underway. I didn't suprise though, they always fighting since my 6th grade.

But the nice thing is, they always kind to me. They never showing their fights in front of me. Even i know about they fight is that i noticing they always go outside of the house every night after i entered my bedroom. Went to the backyard, and yelling at each other after long long conversation.

Same as Hayato, i can survive life from my father money although they divorced. My mother keep send me money too. I still have good connection with them. Every saturday, i will call my mother. And in Sunday, it's my father turn.
They still haven't meet they next soulmate yet but gladly, they happy with their own life.

I just really happy with my life just the way it goes flow. I still find happines under my parents problem, and i still with Hayato until now.

♡

Back to Hayato,

As a good girlfriend, sure i contribute a lot stuff to him and his brothers life. Even Shun--the youngest Hayato's brother--says he want to marry me in the future (i think he is too much watching TV). Hayato can't help being mad and laughing at the same time.

4 days a week, i always sleep at Hayato's house. Of course to help him out to take care the house cleaning, cooking, and accompany his two brothers when he practice at soccer club. But honestly, it's really not the real reason. If you know what i mean...

But i really want to contribute to his own life, as his contribute on mine. At least this is all i can do for him. Everytime i stay at his house, with his 2 brothers, dinner together, spending all the night watching TV together, trying to holding my scream every night Hayato pleasuring me, i just think that is this how family feels like? Is this how being a parents? Am i too much thinking?

What it is like if Hayato become a father?

Is he will be as good as my father does?

Hayato is the type that can brutaly offensive to someone with soft smile on his lips. But he never saying mean things to me since we met in the first place.

♡

God was making a sweet horrifying to meet a boy named Matatagi Hayato scenario for me.

It was in the winter, highschool entrance exam will be held in 1 hour again, and the train that i take was really full. I need to hold my leg aches, someone's touches around my back skirt, and my cry. I was too afraid to scream, and too suffocate to attack. My eyes can't be helped but so watery, my body is hardly trembling, i keep biting my lower lip, and my nails hurting my own palms.

'Please, someone help me!'

And again, other guy trying to touch me by embracing my shoulder and pulling me to his chest. This guy wearing junior highschool uniform that i don't recognize, and it's make me more scared.