Hi, my name's Maddie. Maddie Sullivan. I don't typically write in journals... I mean I'm seventeen, not twelve. However, I recently have the lost the ability to hear and speak. Which obviously, as you can tell, sucks ass, especially for communication purposes. My mom and new therapist (Doctor's orders) think I should be writing in a jounral since it causes a lot of stress and depression in a young girls life. Blah, blah, blah. They act like I'm emo or something. Honestly, I feel worse for my friends and family. It's such a burden. Most people are trying to learn sign language which makes no fucking sense considering I don't even know sign language. The two people I care about the most, my mom and Ethan having to deal with this-- ugh. Life is so unfair yanno? Oh, Ethan is my very best friend. He's amazing. He's always making me laugh and smile. He has been my best friend since I was 8 years old and I couldn't have asked for a better friend to grow up with. I think never being able to hear his voice or laugh ever again is going to be the hardest part. He tells me to be hopeful, because there's still a chance with getting a hearing aid, but the chances of me hearing anything are low, and I guess I don't have much faith in anything after the whole incident. But I need to get ready for school.
