10:48 pm
December 21st, 2019
Saturday.
i keep having these thoughts.
the ones that keep you up at night.
and that feeling.
the feeling of being sad. but not knowing why you're sad.
so when everyone asks you what's wrong, you don't know how to respond.
how do you explain to them, that heavy feeling on your chest? the weight on your shoulders? the constant feeling of sadness and despair? and pain?
how do you put something so real, but so invisible, into words?
because if they can't see the pain you're in, then the pain doesn't exist, right?
i guess that's right.
fake a smile.
fake the happy.
fake it all.
because if you don't, they'll think you're a freak. a sad, freak.
