Five pack

Kierstyn..

                                     (3 months later)

Kaitlynn pass me those flyers on top of the printer . I'm going to hit the streets and pass some out and tape some to a few poles or bulletin boards. "I want to come with you let me grab my shoes, Kai said." No Kai stay here it's far too cold outside You're already trying to get a cold. You know you can't take any heavy duty meds while you're pregnant. "I don't give a fuck I'm coming. I honestly hate I even got pregnant at a time like this. I already feel helpless and big as fuck, Kai replied." You only have like four and a half months left Kaitlynn just keep calm. She didn't reply so I put the flyers down and walked closer to the living room to see what she was doing. This bitch was crying and putting her uggs on. What the fuck Kai you can come just stop the crying please we have to be strong. " I can cry if I fucking want . You hold this fucking baby and tummy until it's time for labor and let me go do the dirty work and I'll stop crying. This shit ain't easy for me . I wouldn't be emotional if my dawg just come home safe." We're going to think positive Kai until we see the negative. "We're living the negative Kandy, we're experiencing the negative so how in the fuck can I see the positive or speak positive ?" It's hard but you have to especially when you're around ma nem. She's worried about her unborn grandchild who happens to be safe and healthy but the mother isn't. You spend too much time worrying yourself which causes the baby to be stressed out honestly. It's not just you anymore kaitlynn you have to think about the safety of your child . Your child comes before you and he/she can feel when you're upset or stressed out. "I would literally pay whatever for the doctors to successfully transfer my baby from my womb to yours for the last four and a half months. I'm at war with myself . I feel trapped in my own mind and body kandy. You can't know how I feel, but I'll try to stay on the positive side ." Thank you , the car should be warm by now come on let's go. "Grab the keys to your old condo please I want to check the mail and the apartment one more time." I got them sis come on . Soon as we got in the car a blocked number called my phone. I politely hit the end button and put the car in drive as I waited for the garage door to open fully . Couldn't even get out the driveway before some lame was calling back . HELLOOOOOO " Damn bae who pissed in your Cheerios ?" Ashton where the fuck you been ? I thought this was someone else cause somebody just called me blocked. "Bitches still do that ? I'm sorry I fell asleep at the trap last night bae, ash explained." Yeen sorry and I think it's best you move the rest of your clothes to the trap or to big momma house. "Chilllll out with all that hot shit . This my first time doing something dumb and now you wanna go stupid." I don't give a fuck cause when I let you slide you start ice skating . "Aye bruh please just let this one slide I ain't gone fuck up no more I put that on my momma. I'm fenna come home right now and I'm not leaving none this weekend. I'm not fenna be getting in trouble." I changed the locks around 2 am when I was sitting up waiting on your dumb ass. "Kandy stop playing . You Forreal ? Aye bruh pull up to my house real quick it's too cold to be playing with my girl forreal ." Kai started laughing .. What Kai? " His stupid ass got scared. I love that man like he my real brother, Kai said." " No cap sis you know how crazy that dumb ass girl play sometime. I don't have time to be in the cold over a simple ass misunderstanding." Well get yo shit together . Stupid ass need to be handing out flyers instead of drugs or at least both so the police will think you doing at least one thing right. "Fuck what them hoes think they work for me and their so close to being unemployed. But listen thou bae yeah like I said I'll be home when you get back cause I see you ain't at home ." Okay whatever "I love you big head, Ash said." I love you too I'll talk to you later ." Kai why the fuck you still laughing ? " Cause Ashton funny, y'all really make me miss my baby daddy." I thought you went down to the sperm bank you liar. "My baby daddy work at the sperm bank I went down there to tell him I was pregnant ." Stop with the lies cause I'll drive down there . "Well he use to work down there he works at the hospital now . He's a nurse ,but once I went down there to tell him I was pregnant I changed my mind. I never was really ready to have him that close up in my personal life so I just cut him off. It hurt me but I felt like that was best . He's nosey as fuck as it is and if he knows we have a child he'll definitely have a reason to ask them nosey ass questions that I've been avoiding this whole relationship. I see him taking me to court for custody and I see me putting two bullets in his head. I just rather raise my baby with you and ash and momma nem ." Bitchhhhhhhhhhhhh you really thought this all out huh ? You really think that man not gone catch on ? " He knows nothing but my name and number ain't shit to catch on to, Kai explained." Okay you got this figured out . Where should we stop first that we haven't already tried ? " Stop by that muh fucking condo we haven't been by there in two months we could have overlooked something or missed anything." Okay we can go there first. The condo was forty five mins to a hour away from my new spot so ofcourse the big pregnant lady had to fall asleep on me . Turning into my old neighborhood definitely felt strange and cold but I overlooked the bad feels it gave me. Wake yo big ass up and come on I didn't pay the light bill this month nor last so we're limited on the time because when it gets dark we won't be able to see. Kai jumped up and was out the car before me . I could tell she was annoyed by how slow I was moving . Out of all of us I know Kai was taking things the hardest. When I look into her eyes I see her heart breaking more and more each day . I could tell she was hurting by the way she dressed everyday . Her clothes weren't ugly but it's like she barely tried . Ashton took us both shopping , Kai has plenty of pretty maternity clothes . Everything he bought still has the tags on. I could tell she was depressed by her appetite and the way she did her hair. I knew she was stressed and that her mind never stopped running . I know she's constantly allowing the unknown to hunt her. The how, when, where, and why. It's like fighting a battle in your head with no help. You begin to feel like you're never going to win unless you let go. The bags under her eyes and the type of conversations she held on the daily told a story like no other. This whole situation was killing my sister . How do you rescue someone when you yourself need saving? How do you comfort someone when you are going through the exact same situation that their going through? It's like being scared but telling someone else not to be scared.