5 years

Prologue

I'm Ayana Lexi Perez,the youngest in Perez clan...I have two brothers and we have a company but I would work in Ramirez company...why?

I want to be simple and not a Perez youngest...some people know me but the others are not....I'm young,seventeen anyway I am turning 18 next year and I am Senior high now,graduating.

If I'm turning 18,but of course I am going to 18....ipapakilala nila ako sa lahat,the girl infront of you is a youngest Perez...gagawin nila nyan and I don't agree with that but I don't have choice...

We attend gatherings, and after a month...my debut so dad is inviting them--not all....then I meet him the guy who is smiling all time and a good looking...a guy name Alexis Ortega....after that dad invite the Ortega's in my debut then they said yes....after month my debut is coming.

The 18 candles,18 gifts,18 shot,and 18 roses...I don't know who is my escort pero ng tinawag ang last sa 18 roses there he is holding bouquet of red roses and papunta na sya sa pwesto ko and greet me a 'happy birthday' then nagsayaw na.

I am 18 now and going in college,after my debut I don't see him anymore.i feel so sad but I said to my self he is just a guy,man and whatever....I'm college now and then after a month I saw him in the university kung saan ako nag aaral sinabi ko sa sarili ko na na-mamalikmata lang ako so hindi ko pinansin then kinabukasan i saw him again and he saw me too,he is smiling at me but I ignore him.

I am second year and college na naging mag kaibigan kami he is too...lagi na kaming nag sasama at sabay lagi sa lunch sa recess at uwian...pareho ang schedule namin dahil parehong business ang kinuha namin...after I graduate I will manage our company but I want to work in Ramirez's company....sa Tito ko I am close to him so I want to work with him then after a year I would transfer in our company and manage that.

Third year college pinakilala ko sya sa family ko,as a Friend they agree to him and I'm happy.ganon din ang ginawa nya sa akin pinakilala sa pamilya nya at they agree too.

After month we are celebrating our 1 year friendship then I have so many suitor and I said yes to one,my crush he is my first then Alexis not agree to him....baka Satan daw at paiyakin ako sinagot ko na lang ng 'I don't care' and after week we broke up...i don't fell anything.

Alexis lang ang masyadong O.A kung ano ano ang sinasabi...pag-katapos non nag karoon na ako na ibat ibang boyfriend....weeks,one month, and days lang ay nag be-break na kami... Si Alexis ay nag karoon na rin ng girlfriend he have 4 exes and I have so many and after year we are celebrating our 4 years in friendship we are graduate now and nag hahanap na kami ng aming trabaho...Nope I am lang pala.

Sa Ramirez company na ako nag trabaho nag Simula sa mababa hanggang naging secretary and Alexis  sya ang papalit na CEO ng company nila kaya masyado syang abala.

Umuwi ako ng gabi noon at hindi ko alam na may mga lalaking lasing pala sa dadaanan ko... pinipilit nila ako kaso may tumulong sa akin isang lalaki I didn't see him,sobrang dilim pero nakita nya na ang isa sa tatlong lalaki ay napokpok ng bakal bago ko makita mukha nya sumigaw sya ng 'run' hindi ko alam pero parang pamilyar ang boses.

Hindi ko na lang pinansin dahil sobrang takot ako...and nalaman nila dad kaya hindi na nila ako pinapauwi   ng mag isa....at nag punta rin si Alexis asking me if I'm ok,nasaktan ba ako...at sa araw-araw na ginawa nya I fall  for him....then after months he have a girlfriend name Ashley lopez...two weeks na sila at two weeks na rin ang nararamdaman ko...I pretend that  I am happy but inside it hurts so much.

"Ayana"tawag sa akin ni AJ short for Alexis Josh

"What?"I ask

" I want to invite you I and ash-"

"I'm not free, I'm sorry!...gotta go!"sabi ko at umalis pag niyayaya nya ako at kasama ang girlfriend nya hindi ko pinauunlakan sinasabi kong busy ako,madaming gagawin,at kung ano pa para matakasan ang sakit

"Ayxi!"tawag nya sa akin...short for Ayana Lexi

"What?"tanong ko.nandito kami sa isang basketball court sa village namin walang tao at kami lang maaga pa lang at nag jogging kami dahil stress na rin masyado sa ginagawa.

"Why are you like that?"tanong nya kumunot ang noo ko

"What are you talking about?"

"Why?"seryoso nyang sabi

"What the...can you straight to the point?...I am not a mang huhula to know what are you saying!"iritado kong sabi

"Yan...you change...a lot!"he said"you are avoiding me!....at lagi kang nagtataray!" Sabi nya sa akin.

"Hindi ako nagbago,madami akong ginagawa kaya hindi ako nakakasama...at hindi kita iniiwasan assuming ka lang talaga.... iritado? May pa tense ka pa kase...kaya mo naman diretsuhin pinapatagal mo pa!"sagot ko at uminom ng tubig ayoko malaman nya ang nararamdaman ko,ayoko.

"Really? Ashley want to catch up with you!...but you don't want,why?" Tanong nya... really? You want to know Ortega

"I am busy!"tanging sagot ko
" To many excuses!"sabi nya kaya binalingan ko sya

"Really! Then go...go with your girlfriend...why are you here?
.. pinilit mo ako sa jogging na ito...bakit ka pa nag yaya E meron ka nga palang girlfriend!"sigaw ko

"What are you talking about?....I miss the old days...Hindi na natin to nagagawa kaya ako nagpunta...I miss my Ayxi,my perez...my best friend!"he said at sa huling sinabi nya natauhan ako. BEST FRIEND...uh-huh I am his best friend at nangingilid ang luha ko..."we are now celebrating our 5 years friendship now Ayxi!...sana d mo na kalimutan!"he said

Nakalimutan ko na yan AJ kase hindi na friend ang nararamdaman ko sayo...it's almost one year itong nararamdaman ko simula ng aksidenteng nyon...alaga at pagpapahalaga mo na hulog ako....Hindi ko na alam

"I forgot!"sabi ko.

"H-huh?.... Did you...whoa haha...wag kang magbiro!"sabi nya...I am not.
"Come on...let's go back...ashley text me...I have to go!" He said again and he mentioned that girl

"Go!...I am staying here!"sabi ko

"No"

"Come on... your girlfriend needs you!"

"I stay here...she can wait!"really? Ashley? Ow that's new,huh?

"No!...go,puntahan mo na sya...kaya ko mag isa...kaya ko sarili ko....at hindi kita kailangan!"diretsahan kong sabi..

"Ayxi!...come on, I'll wait for you.Ash can wait!"

"Stop it!stop!...I can't control a-anymore!"sabi ko at na-ngingilid ang luha ko

"What?...you okay,Ayxi?...tell me may masakit ba?"tanong nya.yes sobra sobrang sakit

"Stop! Go...away...I don't need you....it's so hurt...damn it...go now!"sabi ko at tumulo na ang Luha sa mata ko...Hindi ko na kaya pa Aj pls go

"Ayxi! Why are you crying?...stop!... don't cry...Ashley can-"

"I know...how many times you would say that,huh?....it's hurts magkasama tayo pero puro ka Ash,Ashley...damn you,Ortega....ang sakit,sobra pls...umalis kana!"sabi ko at nag tuloy tuloy na ang Luha ko sa pagtulo

"W-what are you talking about?...I can't understand Ayxi!"sabi nya at litong ligo talaga sya

"You don't?....manhid ka,gago...itong nasa harapan mo ngayon na kaibigan mo na nag-ngangalang Ayana Lexi Perez ay nagkagusto sa kaibigan nya one year ago and now...I am saying that I am fucking in love with you!"sigaw ko at umalis na pero bago ako umalis nakita kong naka awang ang kanyang labi at may kislap sa mga mata.

And now I am confessed my feelings to my bestfriend....I feel relief but feel uncomfortable...but that's love.

You can be happy,but you are  happy it's double saddest thing.....
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......that's call love....if you are not hurting that's not love but if you hurt that's call love....
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