Hi I'm Benzy , Benzy Arnold.
I'm 21, & I just graduated from college. Sounds great right ? Psssssst. This is just my new beginning.
I'm fully Jamaican but America raised. I don't know my parents or where they are but I know my adoptive mother Sabrina Arnold , she raised me since I was 4 & raised me well.
I was also raised with Brina, Sabrina daughter who is 2 years older then me. But that all ended when Sabrina father who I also considered to be mines, kissed me in the mouth when I was 7. I didn't tell I thought it was Normal, until one day my mom tucked me & my sister in bed & when she kissed us goodnight I attempted to kiss her the same way. She was pissed. She asked me where I get that from' & questioned was it one of those bad boys from granny house. I shook my head & told her daddy kissed me like that the night before while giving me a bath.
She asked brina did she get a kiss like that also & brina told her no. Mommy was furious. She stormed out the room & we could hear them arguing. That argument turned into a divorce & custody battle which caused brina & her father to hate me, brina would stay with us Sunday- Wednesday until brina chose to stay with her father when I was 14.
Mommy was devastated, she was a nurse practitioner. Until all the stress led her to drugs , we lost everything & had to move with granny in the hood, mommy began to leave a lot but no matter where she went she would bring money to granny for caring for me.
It was hard for me over there , everyone stayed with granny , they hated me for being mommies downfall but the never said it, because granny wouldn't let them , but granny died when i was 17. Which caused mommy to be on more drugs , I used to beg her to stay with me but she would tell me she was going to American idol for try outs. She always told me to focus on school,
School was my get away & some of the other kids on the block, I had cousins my age that would hang with me too. We used to hang all up & down the block, I always had a crush on this one boy name Cartel Lopez. Aka trouble , he was from the hood , laid back , chill asf, he was caramel , y'all , waves tattoos & always dressed nice he was always chasing a dollar, he sold a lil weed here & there, he wanted to make it out,
My mom had money put up in a savings account for when I turned 18. She wanted me to go to college. But I wanted to to use it to get her proper help.
Cartel would talk to me about our dreams , he never knew I had a crush I would play it smooth. He was 2 years older then me, also so my cousins would stress the fact that he was older then me but I think it was for them to have more of an advantage.
As soon as I graduated, I went straight to college & became a LVN but I just started. I've barely spoke with anyone over there but I do check ups on mommy & would send her money , I worked at a local Starbucks through my whole college experience. Met some friends , went to parties had some sex, but that's over with , I recently got a job offer at the urgent care , in the hood I grew up in, being thst I care about them the most I accepted it & now I'm moving in a 2 bedroom apartment which is in the hood but haves a nice look. Did I mention that the second room is for my mommy, I worked at the hospital for a month & slowly but surely had my apartment decorated & my mommy home,
No one knew I was bsck until the day I picked my mom up. They were angry , my mom has received government benefits & food stamps & they would use them , but now she's with me & that won't be happening.
