”Why you always avoid to gather with us?”
‘I don't know....’
But deep inside me i want tell you that I am scared... I scared if i join, will i fit with all of you? Will i be okay with all of the flashback that you guys keep share to each other... You all keep in touch with each other but I don't.... And i don't know why... And what the things that i avoid the most is being hurting not by you guys but by the memories between us....
I don't want to be hurt but it keep hurting me if i keep thinking about our memories because its so precious to be let go... And it's hurting to watch all of you have been moving on since the day we were apart... Yess we keep in touch but it's not the same...
I keep thinking how can i not be like you guys... I keep asking why the hell i can't just move on... Make a new life... A new chapter of my life.... And the answer is I DON'T KNOW.....
So don't ask me to move on because i can't... And I'm hurting just by thinking about it.... I'm so sorry to myself because the more i avoid it the more i felt the emptiness conquer me....
