Clea Black

chapter 1

My name is Clea Black. I know, my name isn't that interesting but you might think that my story is. I was born on april 14th 2003 to Gregory and Astoria Black. I have a sister, Keira who is nine years older than me. My parents have home schooled me since the age of 5, so i didn't make any friends until the age of 9 when i started doing more activities outside my home.

 I felt lonely, really lonely. I became violent and got angry easily. I started to wish that i had been born in a different family. i didn't want to be the shy, discreet nerd. I wanted to be outgoing and famous. I tried doing more social things but it just didn't work. People still ignored me and i barely made any friends. I didn't understand why all this was happening to me. Depression slowly came and i got surrounded by a cloud of darkness. 

After my 15th birthday, i started cutting myself because it felt like the only way of feeling something besides numbness. I don't even know why i started but it became an addiction. Looking back, i regret doing so. It just brought me more pain.

 I started to want to run away but my uncle and cousin told me not to because it was dangerous. I didn't understand why they would care,  but listened to them anyway.

 One day in may, Rowan my best friend invited me to her youth group Where i met Ethan. Ethan was a nice, friendly guy with very light blond hair and beautiful green eyes. We very soon became best friends.  He made me feel happy when my day wasn't going so well. He also tried to help me see the bright side of things. We spent a lot of time together and texted constantly. i started building up a crush on him and it felt really strange to fall in love with my best friend. 

Then one day, he called me and asked  if i would be his girlfriend. I said yes! It felt like the best day of my life. He proposed to me to come over at his house for vacation, so i ran down the stairs to ask my parents who where in the kitchen making supper. 

''mom?'' i say and they both look up.'' i was wondering, can i go spend a few days at Ethan's house?'' they look at each other then my mother answers hesitantly '' I'm sorry dear but no. His brother has the reputation of being kinda weird''. ''WHY?'' i yell. '' plus we just barely met Eth..''My father tries to explain but I'm too angry to listen.''IT'S NOT FAIR! I HATE YOU!'' and run back to my room tears running down my cheeks.

 I make sure to slam the door and even lock it before falling on my bed sobbing. i stay like that for two full hours ignoring my parents when they knocked at the door to try to get me to talk with them or at least eat a little. That night, i was trying to ignore the pangs of hunger and just go to sleep, when suddenly there was a noise at my window! i walked over to it, wondering what made that noise and was surprised by what i saw.