I was on the plane to Seattle, Jacob by my side, and Emmett and Edward sitting in front and behind us, Edward behind and Emmett in front. The flight seemed long and tedious and I couldn’t sleep, even though my body screamed for it.
I leaned onto Jake, and he never once let go of my hand. He just hummed into my ear and stroked my head. I noticed he was humming La Nanita Na Na, the Spanish lullaby that my mother had often sang to me when I had nightmares. I often looked up to see Edward looking at me while Jacob was asleep; he looked worried, and sometimes protective.
I didn’t really understand it, and it creeped me out a little, but I felt better knowing that I had both werewolf and a vampire looking after me, but what I really didn’t want was to become another Bella, but this time around, it’d be Edward who got his heart broken. Most of me doubted that, that was what Edward was seeing me as, but a tiny part of me imagined the possibility. Both he and Emmett treated me way nicer than their siblings did. I hadn’t really ever talked to Alice or Jasper or Rosalie, but when I tried, they just disregarded me.
I didn’t really mind it though, I wished that everyone could get along, even though my hate for Bella pulsed through me with a passion and made me want to rip her head off every time I saw her, it doesn’t mean that we can’t at least try to patch together the hole that had been created with the two groups somehow. I felt that I should be that patch, I felt like I should be the one to fix it. Bella could’ve been that one, but in my eyes she only made it worse.
I just wanted everyone to be happy, even if it meant me having to sacrifice myself. I knew this wasn’t my battle, but if I was going to be a part of this world, I wanted to contribute just as much. Although I knew Jacob wouldn’t be too happy if I did, I just wanted to try and fix the void. I wanted to leave behind as much of a good foot print after what Bella did… I just wanted to fix it.
“Uh, I know we’re about to land, but may I talk to you for a second?” Edward came over to me after I set Jake’s arm off of me, he was asleep.
“About what?” I looked at him trying to read his face… blank.
“About when we get to Seattle, I just need to make sure you get the agenda, without any distractions.” He looked at Jacob, then back at me.
“Fine, I don’t mind, and I’m sure he won’t either.” I leaned over and kissed Jake on the temple and got out of my seat. I walked to the back with Edward and squeezed into the tight space behind the food carts. It was a tight fit. My hands were pressed against Edward’s chest and he had his hands above me, we looked strange. I looked at him and I could tell he was uncomfortable.
“Can you tell me why we couldn’t have just stayed in our seats?” I gestured towards where we were sitting. “I mean, this looks a little bad. We are way close, can we just go sit back down?” I looked in his eyes, and they darted away from me. What’s going on with you, Edward Cullen? He finally looked back at me, and his eyes ,brilliant topaz, they shined like diamonds as they pierced into what seemed to be my soul.
“I honestly don’t know, but all of this… I don’t really know how to explain it, and I know this won’t help with all of us trying to be friends and everything but…” he paused and I watched as his perfect marble forehead slowly creased inward. He looked back towards the isle in deep thought, and I couldn’t help but notice the troubled look he held, like he was debating something internally.
“What is it? The plane is going to land in a couple minutes; we should go sit back in our seats now. I think Jacob is going to wake up.” I shifted and wiggled out of the small space, Edward followed me and I felt a stare. This one was similar; in fact very similar to the one Jacob gave me at the beginning of the year, except Jacob was asleep. This time… it sent cold, vibrating chills down my spine.
