A Constant Need To Cry.A Never Ending Loneliness.Annoying Thoughts That Ramble On Endlessly.Never Shutting Up.Always There In The Back Of My Mind.A Smile That Doesn't Exist.A Will That Was Long Ago Lost. Tears That Won't Be Shed.Not In Front Of Others At Least.Pretend Life Is Happy And Dandy.Pretend To Be Okay.Deny It All.Let The Thoughts Seep In.Hear Them Out.If I Listen To Them I Get Injured.If I Don't Listen I'll Still Get Injured. They Always Come Back.And When They Do It Hurts More.Life Isn't That Bad.Yet Is Seems So Depressing.An Endless Void.I Can't Seem To Escape.Forever Running.Running Away From The Pain.Running Away From The Thoughts. The Feeling And Emotions I Can't Deal With.Just Running Away From Myself.I Just Want To Die. Not AlwaysJust A Lot.I Want Help.But I Don't Want Help.I Want To Help Myself.Fuck I Should Help Myself.I Feel Useless.I Feel Scared.It's Frustrating And Overwhelming. I Don't Know What To Do All I Can Do Is Cry.And Feel Weak Again.
