I can't handle these pressures
All I can say is, this stress hurts
Things are supposed to get better
I just need to put myself first
I'm always trying my hardest
Not to pick myself apart, this
Energy's killing my vibes now
Sometimes I just wanna drown out
All of the thoughts in my mind, too much
Going on at the same time, I
Wish it would stop and I've tried, but
Life just sucks then we all dieThat's just reality, yeah, don't lie to me
Yeah, I'm fucked up, but I don't wanna beI wonder if I'm good enough
Or maybe I've just had too much
To drink, to smoke, to swallow
I'm drowning up my sorrows
There's rules I'll never follow
Pretend there's no tomorrow
I wish there was no tomorrowBut I'm empty inside, yeah, I'm empty inside
And I don't wanna live, but I'm too scared to die
Yeah I'm empty inside, I just don't feel alive
And I don't wanna live, but I'm too scared to dieWish I could erase my memories
So I could stop feeling so empty
I wish that shit wasn't so tempting
But it's hard to resist when there's plenty
Of things I could do to fuck me up
I want to let go, but I'm feeling so stuck
So all I can do is fill up my cup
And sit here alone hoping no one disruptsThat's just reality, yeah, don't lie to me
Yeah, I'm fucked up, but I don't wanna beI wonder if I'm good enough
Or maybe I've had just too much
To drink, to smoke, to swallow
I'm drowning up my sorrows
There's rules I'll never follow
Pretend there's no tomorrow
I wish there was no tomorrowBut I'm empty inside, yeah, I'm empty inside
And I don't wanna live, but I'm too scared to die
Yeah, I'm empty inside, I just don't feel alive
And I don't wanna live, but I'm too scared to dieMy body's shaking
My head is aching
It feels like my heart is breaking
My body's shaking
My head is aching
I can't fix this mess I'm making But I'm empty inside, yeah, I'm empty inside
And I don't wanna live, but I'm too scared to die
Yeah, I'm empty inside, I just don't feel alive
And I don't wanna live, but I'm too scared to die
~RaNdOm HuMaN POV~
I watched rin sit there on the brink of tears singing along to his music."depressing"rin said"Tch,my life was good,i finallly had friends,and yet here i am...alone.Great timing!Just as it was getting good!"rin was now sobbing."Thanks,Satan!"He was now on the edge of the roof.'shit'i thought,"NO!"I yelled reaching for his hand as he was falling."Nononononononooo!"i yelled."Bon?"He said confused,"Have a good life!"He said as if nothing was happening."Tell everyone that for me will ya?"He smiled falling out of reach."HOW CAN YOU SMILE?!?!?"Fear showed on my face."goodbye"He whispered.He hit the groud with a loud 'thump'.I dashed to the cram school classroom and yelled,"YUKIO GET YOUR ASS UP!YOUR BROTHER FELL OFF THE ROOF!"Yukio jumped up and yelled,"NII~SAN YOU IDIOT!"his class flinched and started gossiping."NNOOPPEE.NOT TODAY!"i yelled popping my head in the class room."SHUT IT AND WORK OR I WILL GIVE A LECTURE!"They immeadately turned back to their work and then I ran down to rin."Shit,shit,shit,shit!Check for a pulse!"I yelled,Yukio checked and started crying,"CALL AN AMBULANCE HE'S ALIVE!NII~SAN STAY WITH ME PLEASE,P-PLEASE,please"He whispered as I called 9-11."C'mon"I started saying as they finally picked up."PLEASE HELP MY FRIEND FELL OFF THE ROOF!IM AT XXXX-XXXXXX PLEASE HELP!...................HE HAS A PULSE!C'MON RIN!DAMNIT!"I started screaming ignoring all the stares as people walked by.They just see him as a demon,he's not like one though."Sir please calm down!"The lady on the phone was saying."HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO!?!?!"I yelled into the phone."SCREW IT!YUKIO COME ON WERE RUNNING!"I yelled as i picked Rin up,'so light ' I started running and Yukio grabbed my phone and hung up on the lady screaming to wait.He was dying in my arms,It's our fault.We ignored him..."DAMMIT RIN!"I yelled picking up the pace.We soon got to a hospital and they rushed him away on a table.Yukio was braking down as I called shima."Shima get you and the others asses to Aiiku Hospital,NOW."I said in a pissed tone."WHATS GOING ON?!"He screamed into the phone,"RIN....jumped,he is alive but dying"Hearing that yukio sobbed even more."OK."Shima said in a serious voice hearing Yukio."We will be there in a minute."He hung up and minutes later Shima walked in with a worried expression as the others followed behind him.
