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Ezra Lazar

Depression isn't something to be joked about. People don't cut they selves because that shit is fun. They cut themselves because they want to feel something other than sadness. They want the feeling of numbness to go away. The fact that people are joking about this stuff is dumb asf and sad. Your best-friend, sister, daughter, whatever tf you have could be going through this and you wouldn't even know because you take this shit as a joke. Bring awareness guys, the sooner we bring light out of the darkness the sooner we can turn the world around
E.L

I laid back in my bed and let my arm go over my face as I stared at the ceiling

What the fuck am I doing with my life? Why do I feel the way I feel? The answers to these questions are still unknown

I sat up and looked at the blade that's on my nightstand. I picked it up and stared at it

Is it worth it? Yeah it definitely is. I laughed at my own thoughts and brought the blade up to my arm

BOOM
I jumped and hid the blade under my pillow as I came face to face with my best friend linora (Lin-or-a)

"Bitch get up over here acting like you depressed and shit" I frowned at her and rolled my eyes before putting my head in my pillow "fuck out my face linora I didn't even invite you so how tf you get in here" she knows that I'm depressed but she wanna act all brand new like what? But that's my best bitch

"Bitch I let myself in fuck you gonna do?" She pulled the pillow from under my head "now get up cause I want to go to a sale" I groaned

"Linora I don't feel good just go without me" I said sitting up in my bed. I know I look a hot mess right now but at the moment I could care less

"Pleaseee I wanna go get this outfit so we can go the club" she gave me the puppy dog eyes and the pout I stared at her for a good 10 seconds and rolled my eyes "fine"

I took the covers off of me and walked inside my bathroom and started the shower I looked at myself in the mirror and looked away disgusted at the sight of me

I looked at my wrist and seen the week old cuts and rubbed my thumb over them

I stepped in the shower and stood under the water, this is a normal thing to me I'm always depressed and I just stand here for a good 25 minutes

The voice in my head make me wanna kill so much people but I know I can't I call her arze cause she's the opposite of me and once she takes over....just know it ain't good at all

"We should kill that dumb ass in our room"
"Shut up no we shouldn't she a good person"
"What type of person jokes about us having depression"

I shook my head and took a deep breath and finished taking my shower

I walked out and seen linora had  a outfit out on my bed already and I rolled my eyes "linora you know I don't wear tight shit like that" I looked at her with a unamused face "but it'll look so cute on you" she pouted and I turned  away and headed straight for my closet

I picked out a olive green spaghetti crop top with my grey sweats and olive green shoes

I rolled the bottom of the sweats up and put my Bini on I added a read and black plaid shirt and I tied it around my waist I grabbed my phone and turned towards linora

"Bitch you look depressed asf and that outfit ugly but if that's what you like then whatevs" she rolled her. I felt my eyes twitch

"KILL THAT BITCH" "KILL THAT HOE" "KILL HER STD INFECTED ASS"

I shook my head and took a deep breath so I could take control of my thoughts

"Stay calm we don't need to be in jail" I mumbled

"Linora stop making jokes about my depression that's beyond disrespectful" I looked at her

"I'm sorry bestie Pooh" she said while batting her eyelashes I rolled my eyes for the 20th time today "just stop now let's go" I walked out my room and turned off all my lights

I made sure all my lights were off and I locked the door on my way out

I walked over to linora's blue Nisan and got in

"What mall we going to?" I said after she got in "ummm milinia" I shook my head

I live in Florida and milinia is one of the best malls

I laid my head on the window and let my eyes flicker everywhere and anywhere while I had a unwanted talk with arze

"Yo yougotta stop trying to make me kill people"
"And who tf are you to command me"
"Stfu bitch you getting on my nerves talking bout some WhO aM I tO CoMmAnD YoU"
"I'll shut up when I wanna shutup"
"Arze please you keep making me wanna kill my bestfriend"
"Not my fault the bitch is a dumb ass and don't know when to shut her dick mouth ass up"
"Stop-"

I stopped my conversation once I heard linora announce that we're here

I took my seatbelt off and tried not to listen to anything Arze ugly ass is saying

"Bitch I'm apart of you so if I'm ugly you ugly"

I rolled my eyes and trailed linora inside the mall
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