this year is my senior year at ridge wood high and i am nervous, my junior year was hell only because i was new to the community and no body really knew me. i had no friends except one but he wasn't in this community.
i have so much homework this year so it's kind of hard to do anything or go anywhere, i have things going on at home. i just don't have time to see "him" which breaks my heart.
i have been in the foster system for quite a while because my dad went crazy and drank a lot. the only reason he did it though was because he missed my mom.
my mom.... i wish i could say more, my mother passed away 1 year prior to my dad drinking and losing control of himself.
losing my mom felt like losing my best friend, she was the one i always counted on and she was the one i could talk to, my siblings had my dad to count on but me i was different because i was closer to my mom and after she left i felt like the hated one.
i'm also the middle child too so i mean i could see that there.
this is only my far past being told, as of right now i have my best friend who honestly makes me feel happy because i have him, he's my escape from the world.
He has such a goofy personality and honestly he's always there and i'm so happy for that, his name is Remington.
he was there when my mom passed away, he was there when my dad or my siblings wouldn't listen to me and i'm so grateful that he was there because if it weren't because of him i wouldn't have made it through anything.
my freshman year would have been a total disaster, along with my sophomore year.
he is always willing to drop anything to just to talk to me and make sure i'm okay.
and i do the same for him, because he has some family problems too but just doesn't like to talk about it which hurts me that he tries to hide pain, i've don't that before and it hurts.
he has a girlfriend though so
lately he's been distant and i kind of feel like he's moving on so i need to talk to him and ask him what's going on soon before something happens and i don't have him in my life anymore.
his girlfriend kind of hates me though, she thinks i'm trying to "take him away from her" which honestly is so stupid i could honestly laugh in her face if i wanted to but i can't because of rem.
but hopefully he is okay
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sorry for this short chapter
i'll be writing more soon 🖤
