*flashback*
December 2016
It was a very cold December and I remember I was about 16 years old I was sitting in my room with my best friends Keira and Jackson talking about god knows what probably some people at school and the major snow storm outside
It got around 3am (I could never now) until Keira actually fell asleep probably after the effects of the alcohol we had all been chugging ESPECIALLY Keira , she's a fast drinker unlike me and Jackson who don't handle it too well
Jackson and I sat in silence for around 3 minutes until he spoke up
"Aimee I need to tell you something"
"Oh really WHAT
"I-
"DO YOU LIKE SOMEONE"
"No I-
"OH YOU ALREADY GO OUT WITH THEM"
"It's-
"WHO DO YOU HA-
"AIMEE shh shh, I don't go out with anyone , I don't like anyone and to end your sentence it's not someone I hate"
"Oh well then what is it"
"I'm moving"
"What do you mean"
"I mean I'm moving away"
"Where to"
"I'm moving back to my hometown in Hong Kong"
I remember the horrible feeling I felt that day
My best friend
Someone I loved was really leaving
Jackson moved here when he was about 4 years old and now has lived here for 12 years and that's him moving
I wanted to burst out In tears right then and there
I wanted to beg him to stay
I wanted to tell him now much I needed him at home but I know myself that , that wouldn't change anything
I bite my lip to hold back my tears
An aching feeling in my throat
"Oh that's umm fast"
"Well I've known for a while now"
That's when I was just mad
"WHAT and you didn't tell me or Keira" ??!!!
"I'm sorry I didn't want to upset you both and i was planning to tell you both tonight but we were all a bit drunk and then it just seemed like a good moment to tell you there"
"I can't believe this Jackson"
"Well do you think it's my fucking choice where I go Aimee"
"You think I want to leave my home for 12 years , where basically my childhood was , my teenage hood , leave Keira and You , all the people I've made friends with , all the relationships I've built up with people , everything I learned"
I just stared into his eyes because I knew he was right
It wasn't his choice he was only 16 his parents decide , it's not like my mum and dad or Keira's mum and dad would let him stay with either of us no matter how much they accepted Jackson
The thought of him not being here was starting to make me feel sick so I decided to avoid the situation until I was completely sober
"Can we talk about this in the morning Jackson"
"Yeah sure" sympathy in his voice clearly understanding my upset
Keira was already sleeping in the middle as I lay to one side of her and Jackson lay on top of the covers on the other side
I was staring at the wall
So was he
Both not asleep
So many thoughts racing in our mind
So many things not done
So many things not said
* 3 weeks later
It was the day Jackson was leaving to go back to Hong Kong now where he would attend an international school
Me and Keira hopped in my mum and dads car and got ready for the drive to the airport to say goodbye to our childhood friend
We were both sitting nervously in the car looking down
"I can't believe this is actually happening" Keira said to me to try break the aura of loss
"I know we've known Jackson for ages now and he's just going"
"Well we can still talk to him on the phone and stuff"
"I doubt enough though because of time difference"
"It's okay Aimee we will find a way , also I'm sure Jackson will get some decent new friends"
I cringed at the words of "Jackson...new...friends"
But we were his friends I thought to myself
It should only be us
We finally arrived at the airport and we walked inside with my mum and dad
We found Jackson's Family and as our parents talk
Me Keira and Jackson stood there just telling each other we would promise to talk every day and how he will never get people as good as us with him replying of course "I know I love you guys"
They started to call for Jackson's flight and that's when both me and Keira felt that twang in our chests
It was time
Time was up
Keira hugged Jackson and said
"No matter how annoying, obnoxious, weird you are I do love you wang"
Jackson laughed at Keira "I love you too Keira but I know all those things you just said were out of love because damn that hurt if it wasn't" he clutched his heart pretending to be in pain and Keira just punched his arm
This is when she started to cry and Jackson's eyes were also tearing up
"Jackson"
"Aimee"
"Is it worth it saying please don't go"
"Nice try" he smiled at me
"Now don't go kissing too many girls"
"What was that you sound like my mom"
"Just saying"
"Yeah Okay Okay it's just cause your getting worried"
"I'm always worried for you but it's because I love you"
"I'm glad you worry about me because no one else will" he pulls me in for a hug and I start sobbing it physically hurt me
"Aimee you cry far too much for my liking"
"Especially when she's drunk" Keira adds in
"Hey very funny" you say to the two of them laughing at you
"Jackson we need to go now" his mum said
Me and Keira both said goodbye to Jackson's parents and we watched them leave and told him to not look back
Me and Keira stood there holding each other crying our eyes out
There's so many things I never got to say to Jackson that I wanted to say
A million words lost
I hope I find my way back home to you
Even if it takes time .
