Behind Closed Door

Chapter 1 - Jennie Kim

"Oh here we go again..." i sighed , closed my eyes tried to calm my fast heart beat. I was always nervous, even this were million times i walked in airport as it was my own fashion runway.

"Jen? It's gonna be okay, take a deep breath and let it go. I got you, hold my hands" my other member said sweetly. She's Lalisa, my little maknae. She always been sweet and caring to us , especially me. I felt safe with her.

So i wrapped my arms around hers. She looks at me, checked at me , and smiled before she said ...

"You look absolutely beautiful ,Jen. Oh wow...just trust me they ADORE you! Shall we?" Again Lalisa was such a sweet baby. I smiled and inhaled , calmed my nerve. I felt okay now

"JENDEUKIE! " older member practically shouted at me , and it honestly irritated me as hell. But i put respect to Kim Jisoo, our older member.

"What!" I replied shortly and low tone.

"No, just wanted to call you kkkkkkk...calm down Jen, blinks loves you. Oh look your favorite fansite is already there, she is cute, ohhh My Gawd!. Where she from? Oh Paint in Pink ? " Jisoo's eyes wander outside the van windows as our car aproching nearly the main loby of Incheon Airport.

I just sighed and felt my anxious came again.

"Jen, it's gonna be okay, we can do this?" I heard another deep sweet voice behind me. She got cute Aussie accents mixed with Korean. I looked at her and smile weakly. I can feel my stomach was acting up, damnit! I think i have nausea! Oh no...i didn't forget my medication this morning, did i?.
Lisa's fingers gripped more tightly as she stared at me with her furrowed eye brows.
"Jen, you okay? You look pale" she asked me while studied my face carefuly
I sighed deeply
" yeah yeah ,i am okay,Lis"

At no time, i stepped out the van and here it was! Airport fashion show, again and again for million times. I took a deep breath , tried to normalize my fasten heart beat

Lisa checked on me, she smiled wide and nodded to make sure that i was safe with her and us as all members.

"Jen, just hold my arm, you're gonna be just fine" Lisa whipered soft but her face stared straight at the press and fansites in front of us.
I nodded and breathed as deep as i can.

"Ok , lets go bitches!" Kim Jisoo said proudly.

And we stood there at the cross road of the main entrance of terminal 2 Incheon Airport.

We waved at the fansites and press. Wow they were unbelievable alot! . I managed to calm down and still hold on Lisa's arm, i smiled at them and get to showed my signature Jennie Kim's charms. Yes i did that.
I felt so powerful, yet i slightly glanced at my other girls, they waved and smiled so happily proud.

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In the meantime inside the executive waiting room. I slumpped my butt to this comfortable couch as i watched Lisa who was now busy with her phone, i didnt know maybe texting or playing baby show on YouTube Channel. I unconciously looked at her , till suddenly

"Jen? EARTH TO JENNIE! " Rosie makes me jump alittle from couch. Rosie grinned at me with apoligetic smile.

I managed to hide my embarrasement and just pretend to clear my throat

Rosie furrowed her brows ,but she shrugged and continued to talk

"Imma buy some snacks, you want some? I take Chu with me" she said waiting my response.

"Nah, i'm good, but make it quick,we gonna fly in forty five minutes" i answered with smile.

Rosie nodded and dragged Jisoo along with her outside the lounge.

Meanwhile without i was knowing, Lisa was already on my right side and offered me her choco milk. This maknes stole my heart again and again. Ugh

"Thanks Lis, but i'm good, you know i prefer not to eat or drink too much, you know... that ..." i didnt finish my sentences in purpose.

Lisa responded with wide cute smile.

"Oh okaaayyy, Jen , but you drank your meds , right?" She asked worrily. Her eyes stared at me softly.

I smiled and nodded

"Yeah i did" i answered

"Uhm Lis, can i ask you something?" I continued carefuly.
Lisa immediatly widen her eyes but soften in shortly . She cleared her throat nervously

"Yeah sure, what about?" She forced smile.

We were so rare being in such situation. I mean we rarely talked seriously even we were living at the same apartment. But recently Lisa has moved to her own , she said she's gonna settle on her own but still we manage as group. So shortly i did not know her private life whatsoever, other than her relationship with Peter.

I inhaled my deep breath and pulling my guts to ask her.

"Umh, i heard that sasaeng cought you hung out with Peter? Is that true, Lis?" I asks her and i didnt know where i got the strenght i stared at her sharply. I just needed to ask her anyway since the two other girls didn't have guts to ask.

Lisa suddenly lost the smile and glared at me back. I flinched a bit but i tried to calm . She didn't answer but just starred me.

"So it's true, i ... just ...dont ...want Sajangnim catches you as well Lis, i know well this sasaeng, so i tried to hold her ...umh...bribed her to be exact not to leak your heated kissing with Peter" i blurted and Lisa stayed quite, maybe she was mad now. Oh my what did i do?

"Yes we went out that night and we lost control , i am so sorry Jen, i messed up. Peter is just as bold as that" she replied in weird tone , her head hung down as she pursed her lips.

Maybe she didn't know how to react , maybe being mad , afraid or embarrased.

We had 5 years contract not to date ANYONE. Yeah, we know that was stupid! How can we couldnt date anyone , we were woman at early 20's with heated hormons. But we signed that contract anyway, because we just wanted to debut as soon as possible, we were tired being trainee for like .....forever?

And now Lisa and her newly French boyfriend couldnt control their dumb hormons? Ugh, i didnt want our carreer ruined by this love birds. So i needed to confront her even i truly hated that.

I cared about Lisa so much, oh okay i HAD girl crush on her since we were trainee. Yeah, i know it was classic stupid crush. But i always washed away my feeling for her before it could be that serious.
I was straight as arrow, as spagheti! So it was impossible i caught feeling with her. Noway Kim, noway!

"Lis, just careful. Maybe next time i can't bribe that sasaeng anymore. Just tell your boy to keep whatever inside his pants for later inside you guys apartment. I don't want you get trouble, ok" i said sterntly. I felt slight ache in my heart. But what for Kim!

Lisa just looked at me and suddenly she hugged me, didnt say anything. I felt my heart beats a little faster , and i got dizzy. Oh God she smelled so good. I was already drifted on her embrace but not at Rosie and Jisoo caught us off guard.

"You guys...what happened?" Jisoo squealed and her eyes narrowed

"I thought you hate hugging Jen?" Rosie added

Lisa and I parted the hug and we smiled in sync.

"Nah i'm okay now with hugging, right Lis? " i winked to Lisa and she nodded with smirking.

The plane boarding calling has been announced.

So here we go, flew to Tokyo for our final dome tour.

And yes we sold out for 5k dome capacity.

I smiled alone when i remembered those people on twitter who doubted us to sell out dome tour.

Haaaa, they were so wrong!
We were sold out, bitches!

Oh i was happy i got to create fake fan account to stalk blinks on social medias.
I wished this flight would be delightful since i always hated going anywhere but my my mother's house back and forth.