I feel awful, I try and try but no matter what something always happens and it's like no matter how hard I try nothing gets better. It's like theres never an ending, like this will be for eternity. It's like they can't see that I try and I just try to help. But they never know the way I feel, the way I think, and I can't speak. I can't speak the things I want to say, it's like my lips are wide open but my voice is stolen. Like no matter how hard I try nothing comes out. Never. And so they continue. And it's a never ending eternity.
